Shining Thru

Do soulmates exist?  I did not always believe so.  I changed my mind in high school and it has been recently reinforced.  In high school I had a teacher that spoke of his wife with such love and passion I couldn’t help but believe in soul-mates.  Sometimes we would find ourselves listening to his stories and just staring at the wedding ring he still wore at all times, although his wife had been deceased for five years at that point.  He never stopped loving her.

Although I believe that there can only be one soul-mate for a person, I do believe that there maybe more than one person in the world that could make you happy.  I think that is why some people can have a good marriage and life, but still meet the person of their dreams later.  Sometimes you can meet the perfect person for you…after you are already committed to someone you feel you can be content with for the rest of your life.  I believe a soul-mate is something more than just someone you are happy/content with.

I believe a soul-mate is someone you are connected with…someone you relate to on all levels.  Someone you can have deep discussions with, cuddle on the couch and watch a thriller or a stupid comedy (which ever you were in the mood for), of course there would need to be a sexual connection for the relationship to work.  I believe that soul-mates enjoy each other’s company but know when they need their space.  I also believe that at times it can completely catch you off guard.

What if you find your soul-mate after you have your life set up and everything is going well….do you change everything to have your true love in your life?  Or do you stick with what you know is working……Sometimes you find someone who will make you moderately happy…and sometimes you can find someone perfect for you.  It’s up to you if you let the opportunity pass you by or not.

The world is changing all the time, everywhere around us.  Is change always a good thing?  I feel that most change provides opportunities which is a good thing.  I think it is pretty awesome that we have the first black president in the white house.  I think it shows the growth and change of our country.  Here are a few links to the wonderful site of youtube for some humor with our new president. 

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PqI12R8YNU&feature=email

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-yJBsjatW0&feature=email

On a more serious note:  I use to be extremely conservative; however, it was pointed out to me that if you don’t like what has been happening than it’s time to try something new and different.  I am really hoping that this change will do good things for our country.  Sadly, I think the country has been going down hill for awhile as far as the economy and the way we are raising the younger generation.  I do hope that a new administration will provide relief from the issues that we have been dealing with for the past few years.  Things need to change and I really hope that our country is ready for it and will embrace the changes that need to be made.

What is love?

Is it hanging on, or letting go?

Is it deciding, or going with the flow?

Should we look for it, or let it come?

Is it all passion, or will there be hurt and fun?

How do we know when it’s come?

And how do we keep it once we have it?

Love is a large question, linking your heart, mind, soul, and life with another person.  If you fall in love, you will be changed.  It’s one of those things that cannot be undone, you can not wish it away, and it will always be there, even if you have to move on.  If you are lucky enough to stay with the one you love, your life will always be intertwined with another.  I hope we can all find our love and keep it close to our hearts.

Is beauty really in the eye of the beholder?  I once had a teacher that posed the question, What is beauty?  The discussion eventually led to the question, Does beauty exist?  His argument was that  if beauty is really in the eye of the beholder, then it doesn’t have a definition and without a definition, it could not exist….there will be no surprise here to find out that not only was he a Literature teacher but also had a genius IQ.  Although I think he only played devil’s advocate in our many round table discussions in class, it does pose an interesting question.

What is beauty?  Just because something or someone is beautiful to me, doesn’t mean it will be to the person standing right next to me at the same moment.  I personally love scenes in nature.  For me finding beauty in nature brings a type of inner peace.  I also have a lot of friends that would rather never go where there isn’t a paved path, for them there are other things that bring that same inner peace. 

I think that true beauty lies on the inside, even when you see something beautiful it brings a certain feeling of awe and wonder that leaves you knowing that it is beautiful.  Of course a lot of people claim to believe that the beauty of people lies on the inside, but until recently there wasn’t anything in pop culture that preached this concept to the younger generation.  I am thankful that there is now a TV show out called “True Beauty.”  This is a show with hidden challenges to measure the good qualities or inner beauty of the contestants on the show.  The only thing that I don’t like about the show is that they do also consider outer beauty…how would the results be changed if they were only looking at the hidden cameras to see how people act towards one another and how they act in the situations they are put in?  They have already decided that the people there have outer beauty qualities, so why continue to judge that?  I think it would be interesting for them to only judge the inner beauty qualities; but again, what is true beauty?

There are qualities of beauty that I think most people can agree on, but I do not believe that beauty can ever have a true definition.  If beauty was scientific, it would lose the emotions and feelings attached to it, it would instead rely on logic and reason.  To me the loss of the emotion I feel when I see something truly beautiful would be a tragedy.  If it’s a person, a waterfall, a painting, or a music composition, I am glad that my heart is open to the emotion of beauty these things hold.  All of these things have stirred that feeling of awe and wonder of beauty inside of me at one time or another; that feeling that makes you wonder how it’s even possible that something like that could exist.  I hope that everyone is blessed with this feeling of beauty in their life.

I heard on a movie earlier today, “Today is Tomorrow.”  I’dlike to add onto that quote and make it, “Today is Tomorrow and Tomorrow will be yesterday.”   Time is an interesting thing.  Today, Tomorrow, Yesterday; these terms only have values at the moment they are spoken.  Eventually they will all be in the past, and a new day would have taken its place.  We dwell on days like Tomorrow, but maybe we should just start thinking about the now, because that’s all we’re really guaranteed. 

Why does our society insist on labeling increments of time?  Why do we live our life according to how much time there is?  Some people even go so far as to say that their reasoning for doing something is “because it’s time.”  I’ve heard this reason a lot especially in terms of a relationship.  I guess I missed the pamphlet when they gave out the time line for those. 

Does time really matter when it comes down to it?  Does it matter if it was yesterday, today, or tomorrow, when in the end you would have accomplished the same things anyway?  I think our society takes time way too seriously.  I think we should start living according to what feels right in the moment.  Some people have every day planned out for months…that would scare me.  I have goals, and I think that a general plan is great, but do have a day planner with every day filled out leaves very little room to do what you want to do.  I think I would feel like a failure when those things did not get accomplished on the exact day they were suppose to…

My goals and plans change constantly, and I like feeling like I can be open to that.  I don’t need to know what is going to happen….we can’t know what’s going to happen.  I think the more we try to control what happens by labeling it with time, and giving time frames to things like relationships the more we are going to be disappointed in the end. 

So, what is time?  Is it really hours, days, months, and years?  Or is it simply a time line of events.  “We measure our lives in coffee spoons” – a line from one of my favorite poems by TS Eliot.  I think we created labels for convenience in communication, but we have since formed our lives around those labels.  If we are measuring in time, does it matter if we use minutes, days, years, or something as simple as cups of coffee in our morning routines?  I think that maybe we should just take a look at what gets accomplished during those labels, not that we simply made it through another day according to schedule.

The BitterSweet moments in life always come when they are the least expected.  Generally you don’t think, ‘wow I would love for this to happen because it will make me completely miserable in another way.’  The BitterSweet moments are what make us know we are alive, that we can feel, that we still have a beating heart that can love, be exulted, but still break and bleed. 

Things to remember in life:

“True love promises risk, not a guarantee” -unknown

Sometimes you need to just go with things to see what happens next

Trust can be a friend or an enemy — you can either trust that things will work out the way they are suppose to, or feel betrayed by trusting your feelings

Someone always gets hurt – When you try to please everyone, everyone gets hurt.

Passion often rules over logic, so be careful who and what you are passionate about or you will be left vulnerable. 

Honesty can only get you so far

You are the only one who has to live with you for 24 hours a day 7 days a week

Feelings Lie

The people who love you the most can hurt you the most

There is always something that you didn’t see coming

You never know what could happen – only what has happened, how you handled it, and try and prepare for if it happens again

You can never be prepared, everything changes with time, the same exact thing never happens twice

You will change with every event that happens in your life, the positive, the negative, and the bittersweet.

Trust is a powerful thing, and some people take it for granted.  Why is it that some people automatically assume that you should trust them?  It always seems like the people who assume that they deserve your trust that lie the most, but call it “leaving out part of the story.”  How can someone think that you should trust them, when they don’t trust you? 

When you do trust someone you can open yourself up for all sorts of troubles and hurt….but it can also be a wonderful security, knowing that there is someone you can trust.  Someone who you can believe.  Someone who is always going to be upfront and tell you the truth.  It’s nice knowing that someone cares enough for you to be able to trust them. 

Trusting someone can bring a wonderful sense of peace, a feeling of knowing that they wont ever try to hurt you, that you don’t have to worry about them hiding anything, and you don’t have to doubt what they say. 

There are few people in my life that I have ever been able to trust, but I am thankful for those people.  I hope everyone has at least one person they can trust.  I think I want to trust more people but have experienced too many lies to do so.

I think that the smile is the most interesting of reactions to get from someone.  A smile can mean so many different things that it is hard to know which one you are looking at when you see a smile.  A smile can mask emotions when someone is confused, nervous, anxious, or sometimes even angry.  A smile can be used to flirt.  A smile can be used when someone is shy and doesn’t know what to say.  A smile can be used by the villain when they are up to something sinister.  A smile can be used to show appreciation.  There are many uses, but I really think that smiles bring confusion.  It is easy to misread a smile. 

I have heard someone say before to never trust someone who smiles a lot.  At the time it seemed strange to me because we are trained to believe that a smile is a welcoming and warm gesture.  It makes most people feel good to see someone smile.  Now I’m not so sure they didn’t have a point.  I guess it depends on the life experiences that get you to a conclusion like what you believe a smile is. 

The Thoughts become a sea of colors

Swimming confusion inside my head,

I tilt and adjust, but everything stays a blur,

A haze that wont reveal the other side.

What’s to come?

The unknown is the fear, the unseen

The not understanding is the pain,

The ache that wont go away.

But the confusion is life.

Life without pain would be a life without growth

Life without growth would be empty

Emptiness leads to loneliness

And no one wants to be alone.