Shining Thru

The connection reaffirmed again,

Two people becoming one,

Not wanting to let go

The joy overwhelms until it hurts

Your heart aches when you’re missing the other half

When the halves merge together, No fighting, No restraint

Pure Passion brings out the true beauty in the connection

Isn’t it strange how the smallest thing can make you feel really good, more confident, more attractive.  The little things can make a huge difference in your demeanor; little things like putting a little make up on, wearing some sexy shoes, going to get your nails done, wearing a pair of jeans that you know you look good in, getting a compliment on any of the above….little things can really bring out a person’s self confidence, their flirty side, their fun side….all sorts of things can happen when a person is feeling good about themselves.

It’s pretty interesting pushing people’s buttons and seeing just how far people will go or just their reactions in general.  I’m not just talking about the annoyance buttons, but just to see them in different situations and seeing how they react to things like challenges, competition…everything.  It great when you can get to know someone you really care about and finding something new about them.  Even if you pretty well knew it was true, getting the confirmation of seeing it in action is great. 

I think it’s pretty interesting how people act in different situations, even myself.  When you don’t have any stress on your mind, when you’re in a fun, carefree setting, when you’re not worried about being judged, you can act completely different.  You’re still being yourself, but your reactions are different, and I would think most people are more open and I know that I feel free when I don’t have to worry about those other things. 

I think most people act different at work and at home, and I’ve known that for quite some time.  But I think that it goes further than that, in the sense that people act different while doing different things or maybe when they go out verse staying in….I think it comes down to your comfort level with yourself.  It makes sense, the more comfortable you are, the more open and free to be yourself you feel.  Those few lucky people who are completely comfortable with who they are and never try to hide anything will probably act mostly the same all the time, because they don’t have anything to hide, nothing they are ashamed of, or simply don’t care what other people have to say or their thoughts.  If only we could all be like that, I think we would all be happier people.

Love is the only magic the heart knows

Your words, look, and touch, stir the passion

The inside of my soul quivers at the thought of you

The power of this feeling cannot be helped

The passion and the love stir something deep within

Something I never knew existed and doubt I will ever see again

Emotions running wild.

Frustration, Tired, Stress, Confusion, Hurt,

Turmoil of the heart and mind merge,

All combine into a crying outburst of feeling…

Feeling forgotten, alone, and unwanted.

Pushed aside for something more important.

Not having the security that you crave,

Knowing there is always the unknown factor.

After a long day of trying and not succeeding

Hoping, but not knowing if everything is okay.

What else can you do but cry out the overflow.

When you try to be understanding and are forgotten

When you get hurt because you trust and expect

The overflow grows…

I think it’s strange how something that would normally just roll off your back or even make you happy on one day, can really piss you off after a day of continual frustration….When things just happen one after another after another, the smallest thing can just make you go over the top so to speak.  Which is getting you to the point where you don’t want to deal with anyone else or anything else. 

Do you ever notice how some people just have that talent of getting under your skin…they just know the right (or wrong, depending on how you look at it) things to say at the exact moment that it’s going to stress you out.  Some people can instigate a fight between two people they hardly know and then just walk away from it.  Some people can make you so mad and angry that you lose your focus and can’t even consentrate because you’re too busy trying to figure out their logic and why they said what they did. 

Have you ever encountered people who have logic that literally hurts your head.  When you can’t even guess at where the stream of consciousness is coming from???  On a day like today they seem to pop up out of the woodwork.  You don’t even know where they come from.  Or maybe you know this is exactly how they are and always have been and probably always will be, but on one of those frustrating things where things just compound one right after the other they seem to really get under your skin, and you can’t shake the thought that the person is just plain stupid…but if you think about it for too long, you start to wonder if you’re missing something, or if you’re stupid because either A)you’ve been thinking about someone’s stupid voiced thought for way too long OR   B)you can’t grasp everyone’s line of thinking which makes you feel inadequate in some way. 

On a frustrating day, all you want is the safety of home, and to relax….isn’t it funny how that never seems to work out.  How you can’t relax, how sometimes you can’t even sleep when really that’s the only escape you know there is from the continual frustration of the day….

Seeing you

Talking to you

Touching you

All make me smile.

An automatic response that can’t be helped

That I don’t want to help

A feeling of great calming joy

The feeling that everything is ok

Everything will turn out in the end

Two that connect as one

An ocean of feeling in only a moment

A blink in life that holds your attention

You can’t help but stare and wonder

How is it that this other person is providing the missing part?

I can’t imagine all of the things you would miss if you aren’t open to new people and experiences.  People who get set in their ways, accept stereotypes, accept that some things are thought of as taboo; miss out on life in my opinion….I guess they get to live but they are restricted all through it simply because they have made up their mind and formed opinions on things before they ever experience them.  If you don’t go for it and at least things, how do you ever know. 

Now I’m sure there are some things that you don’t really need to try or your life will be just as complete without trying; for example, I don’t need to kill someone to know that it’s wrong and that I shouldn’t and don’t want to.  If for no other reason than I don’t want to go to jail.  But some people categorize things and wrong or bad just because they are unusual or not talked about a lot in our society.  An example of this is sex in general and all of the kinks that can go along with sex.  In other countries it is out in the open for all to see, there are sex toys sold in the windows of shops on the main streets…yet here in the US we make sexuality something that can sell products but can’t be talked about…which I think is why we have so much teen pregnancy. 

So many people want to live life according to what they have been taught, but what I have learned is that leaves you with the life filled with your parents’ ideals, and nothing of yourself.  How can you live your own life if you’re never open enough to experience things for yourself?

A brief glimpse of happiness

A feeling of soaring above all else

feelings of passion and love

drive you to the end

Held in security for a brief time

The warm embrace of being wanted

Not wanting the warmth to stop

Not wanting the feeling of love and ecstasy to walk away

The evening comes and darkness closes in

The life you’ve known for the past few hours fades

Reality sets back in but the passion and love stay with you

The complications weave back into view,

but the passion and love make them seem less important than before.

Love and passion, the  Feelings you can’t be rid of

The connection between the two can’t be denied.

Emotions stay even when your glimpse is over

Until you meet again you hang onto the truths of your heart.

I hear a million horses racing
and feel the nothingness,
i close my eyes
and sink into your sweet darkness,

i glide through your air
lighter,
higher
you pull me close
yet i’m still too far
to feel your warmth

i feel a million horses racing
spurred by desire,
riding the edge of passion,
burning like fire
how clearly the memory rests within my mind -
your taste, your touch,
i remember how love feels from
the deepest point inside your body
and the pain i suffer comes from
being this far away from
the last separation of our lips.

I reach,
but the tips of my being
cannot touch you,
cannot feel you,
cannot taste you
cannot please you,
my sight fades
and i must use another
sense to clutch
you