Shining Thru

Take another look

But don’t look back

No regrets but fond memories

The time spent in the blissfulness of love

Look around the corner, not able to see around the bend

Looking for clarity but only able to replay the confusion

Knowing that the love is powerful

It will always be there, no matter what angle it’s viewed

Powerful and always there

The joy when I hear your voice

The happiness and peace that comes with your touch

Not wanting it to disappear into the foggy complications of life

Not wanting to give it up, we go on

Hand in hand, squeeze tight and let me know you’re there

Never alone, our love grows and grows

In the comfort of knowing that you care

We’re here and our love is here to stay.

Fairy wings flutter by your head

You gasp at the beauty of the flowers all around

Green and peaceful

The bubbling of the stream flows by

Sanctuary…

The perfumes fill the nostrils

Colorful petals hidden in the vines

Green and alive, hidden away

Safe and Secure.

Feeling safe and at peace

Calmness fills the air as you escape

Hiding for a time from reality.

What are we teaching the younger generation when you can see a 15 year old throw a full out temper tantrum with stopping feet and slamming of doors?  What have we done to make that seem like it is ok past the age of 2.  We should be breaking our kids of that habit when they are 2 not when they are 20 and get fired from numerous jobs and end up on welfare because they can’t deal with things that happen in their work place, or when they don’t agree with their boss.  What are we teaching younger kids for them to think that if they stomp around, yell, or be rude and think that it will help them in any sort of way.  A teenager is way too old to be acting childish and not communicating like a young adult.  And yet it seems like more and more young adults are not maturing like they once did.  It seems like they are interested in things that are way beyond what they are ready for and try to be too much of an adult while still acting childish in their behaviors.  I know that the teenage years are hard for most people, but there comes a point when we need to realize that as a society we are failing to raise these young people in a way that will make them responsible and mature adults.  It’s the “gimme” generation.  Too many of our young people think that they are entitled to things that they have not earned and if they are not given what they want then they have the right to complain, yell, stomp, and be rude as if they had something to be offended over.  If parents don’t begin to raise their kids the way they need to as a parent instead of as a friend, they these problems will continue to grow.

It’s amazing the power of frustration, denial, anger, sadness, fear….they can all make a person forget themselves for a time, short or long, doesn’t really matter, as long as they can escape themselves for that amount of time….

Of course the problem is when that detachment leaves you at a place where you picture yourself driving over a bridge or in front of a moving semi and not regretting that you had the thought…not sure if you would regret it if you did it….

Feeling detached is sometimes your only defense against your emotions….when you can’t control them you have to remove yourself from them since most people can’t remove their emotions.  I guess it’s mind over matter …… but sometimes you can’t or aren’t ready to process through all of the emotions flooding your being, so instead of trying you simply detach yourself.

It’s strange what happens when people decide to start opening up about personal issues, thoughts, feelings, etc….It’s strange at what kind of things allow different people to lower their guards and be honest with others and themselves.  Some people need others to trust in them before they will trust in that person…while others need a safe and small environment; still others sometimes only feel comfortable in front of a large crowd.  I think it’s so strange that we are all built differently to feel comfortable in different situations.  Some people have a best friend while others only really trust their family members.  I’m sure some of it is how we are raised, but I think that some of it is hardwired into us….something that we are born with and can’t help….however, I do think that it can be altered by extreme upbringings. 
So much of how we are is learned behavior…..I still believe that there are some things that we are just born with.  What makes a person trust another person, or feel comfortable in one situation, while in another situation that might even be very similar, they are withdrawn and shy….I wonder what it is that makes people feel safe and secure?

Stripes and checkers

Colorful designs reside in black and white

Melting together into a blended gray.

Perception of them all blending together

Reality becoming a blur

Until all you see is one solid design

Colors don’t matter

Shapes are irrelevant

It’s simple perception that creates the new look

Through the eyes of one who never sees

Through the blurring of confusion

The new look appears and grows stronger

Strength and belief builds into reality.

Choices rumbling around

Tumbling up and down

From side to side things bounce

Caught in a heated fire of decision

Pacing back and forth

The same thoughts over and over

Trying to make the chaos make clear

Nothing new….same facts as before

Indecision fighting to continue

Knowing you must choose

Every day choices feel hard

One after the other you fight the apathy

Relying on your feelings you fight the indecision

Reality closing in

Decision making ………………

The soft colors of the leaves

Against the contrasting bright sky

The cold chill of fall removes the warmth of morning

Change becomes a part of every day life

The scenery so common around you

Is different every day.

The sky sometimes so bright, yet cold

Sometimes soft and padded with clouds

Clouds that role up with the tears of the sky.

Fall is the time of change,

Change of growth even as everything fades

We move forward and witness the passing of time

We must look at our surroundings and take heed

As we must grab opportunity before the change passes us by.

See the change quickly approaching

Seize the beauty of the change, before the bleakness of winter.