Shining Thru

Sometimes we get so caught up in our comfort zones with things that it takes a friend or someone to give a little bit of a push or grab us by the arm and yank us out of the hole we have dug for ourselves.  Sometimes it’s nice to have the familiar things to fall back on, but other times it’s nice to break out and try something new…food, clothes, places, people…..I guess sometimes you have to be in the right mood, but often times it works out for the best, even if you didn’t want to go out of the box originally.

Sometimes we have to convince ourselves that it would be for the best if we went ahead with the plans that we make…even when you start to turn back as they get closer.  Sometimes we have to embrace the new paths that are put in front of us, even when we don’t want to let go of the old dirt road we’ve been following for most of our lives.

Sometimes a little push will make a huge difference….each new person that we meet, or new experience that we have we gain new characteristics ourselves, even if it’s just a change in the way that we think…the whole thought process is a big part of each person.

There seems to be a thin line when trying to balance life out and experience it to the fullest…if you’re not involved in enough activities, groups, people, etc, then you feel like you never do anything but stay home….on the flip side when you start working multiple jobs, get involved with different clubs and groups, and start hanging out with different people it is easy to become overwhelmed to the point of not feeling like you ever have time for yourself….the problem being that by the time you get overwhelmed you are generally already committed, or have justified everything in your head to the point that you don’t want to back out of anything or give up anything…so then what do you do?  Continue to take away hours of sleep, just to get in some time to quiet your mind?  But if you use that as your answer, you start to suffer during the day….your patience grows thin, you get sick of things that are happening around you every day, you start not to enjoy being around the same people because you just want to be alone sometimes…What’s really sad is when you spend all of your time with people, and most of them are not the few that you really want to see….So now, you have a packed schedule, you’re seeing people that you don’t have patience for, and missing the people that you love.

I think that balancing out your life takes real talent…sometimes it’s a lot harder than you think, especially because every time you think you are walking along the tightrope without any problems, a strong breeze comes through and something throws you back off balance.  Sometimes you feel like you are trudging along, but as much as you try to move forward, sometimes you just sink deeper into the mud.

Other times things seem to go really well.  You do all of the things that you want to do, and see all of the people that you want to see….however, it’s easy to get distracted from the things that you need to do at that point.  I wish I could find that perfect balance between the two.

Do you ever feel like you are screaming and nobody is listening?  No matter what you say you feel like you might as well take up being a mime for the circus, or just on the side of the street.  Yelling and Yelling but nothing comes out.  You want to shake the people around you and tell them to just listen….why can’t they just listen?

I have to wonder if I ever frustrate people in the same way.  I don’t know if there are mutual feelings from the people that frustrate me so much.  Sometimes you feel like you don’t even speak the same language as other people, the way things are twisted around or simply ignored….

I think that a lot of issues could be solved if people listened to each other, really listen to each other.  I think so many people just kind of go with the flow of things instead of paying attention to the details.  Some people are trying so hard to fight their way through each day, each minute, that things get tough for them to pay attention to, they’re simply stretched too thin.

“All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. ”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

I have to say that some people would disagree with Emerson.  Some people get really annoyed and even angry when you try to go beyond the normal happenings of the day, when you try to throw something new into the routine.  Some people prefer to know exactly what will happen every day no matter what…while others never want the same routine.  I think that most people have parts of their life in a set routine, either what they do at work, or how they get up int he morning, or what they do when they get home….some of these routines are hard to break, while others you can bounce all around and still get things done.

However, there are some people who live for adventure.  Some people choose jobs like police officers, hiking guides, different jobs that don’t have set routines and they are able to see and do different things with different people each day.

I have to wonder how many people are the adventurous type and how many are the type that like routines to the point where they have an off day all day whenever something does not fall the way it has int he days before it.  I’m willing to bet there are more people that lie somewhere in between, I know there are extremes, but I think most people would agree that trying some new things is a good thing and some routine is also nice at times.

Looking in it’s easy to see the mistakes and criticize

It’s easy to look on and view the issues of others as unnecessary conflicts

The look in the window always seems simpler than it really is.

There isn’t any sound you only see the movements in one room, instead of all of the goings on in the house

It seems like people are quick to tell someone how they could have avoided a situation or that what they are doing is wrong….isn’t it strange that most of those same people don’t have any type of real advice on how to improve the situation, they are good at criticizing but not at problem solving….

I think it’s rather strange that people who make plenty of mistakes themselves never seem to admit to them, they only look for someone else to blame, someone that they can pin the whole thing on and keep things moving for themselves.

I hate that people will look at a person and expose their weakness or criticize a situation that they do not understand and usually are not fully aware of.

People who want to examine the life of another need to look into the mirror.

It is so nice to feel like spring is on its way.  I don’t know what it is about this time of the year but the weather is nice, you can actually get sunshine in your windows, it’s daylight longer during the day.  This season of birth and change is a wonderful time of the year for me.  I think that there is something about it that makes me feel like it’s time to get some things done as well.  Spring gives me hope that things are going to come together after all.

It seems like even though we think of spring as a season for animals to be born and the weather to get nicer and the flowers to bloom; it seems like people also go through something at spring time.  I’ve noticed more people smiling, I’ve noticed more babies being born, it just seems different.  I don’t know if it’s the nice weather or what it is, but I do enjoy seeing the changes all over.

Funny how certain things can raise our alert levels, there are some obvious things such as a crime taking place while you’re int he same area or seeing the police chase a car down the street….and then there are the situations that are not so obvious, but are easy to figure out because they are the situations that occur around you, maybe even somehow involve you, but you still have no idea what’s really going on….something like the cops being in your neighborhood on every street, looking in cars, searching people, but nobody telling anybody what’s going on or why they need to be doing these things. I think that they probably do have a reason for all of these different things; however, it’s hard for a person to understand that when nobody will tell them what is going on or what the point of all of it?  What is the end goal?  Not knowing those things can drive a person crazy.  Not knowing who or what is going around in your neighborhood can make you look over your shoulder, not in a paranoid kind of way, but just trying to be safe and aware of everything that is around yourself.  I think that you almost have to be on alert.  I think that some people don’t know how to get off of being on alert and are there all of the time.  I’m not sure this is the healthiest way to do things, but who am I to judge that.  Sometimes just plain being tired can put you at a higher alert level, or do the exact opposite and make you not care about anything but sleep…I guess it just depends on the person.

What’s interesting is when you figure out that you were really on alert for no good reason and were really over reacting…I suppose it’s better that than to be caught off guard by something horrible, but still…it’s not a really enjoyable way to live in my opinion.  Always on your guard, always alert for the fall….

Sometimes I have to wonder if the more someone gets paid or the higher up they are in an organization or company the more hypocritical they are suppose to be….Sometimes I wonder if there are rules like these that people who work under the rest of them are not privileged to know….like in the interview to be the supervisor or boss they ask you things like, are you willing to criticize other people while never acknowledging your own short comings?

I think that people get sick of only being criticized by people who are always watching for their mistakes instead of everything that they are doing, especially when you go above and beyond and nothing is ever said about that, only that you didn’t do some other minute thing.  It’s really frustrating when you know that the people criticizing you are also not doing what they are suppose to do in order for everything to work out they way that it’s predicted to in theory.

I love how theories never account for the slackers in the upper levels, but they always seem to keep on the people at the bottom of the totem pole since of course they must be the ones to blame…never the person actually in charge….I wonder how many people never question when the boss puts the blame on their workers…does anyone stop to think that maybe the person in charge just doesn’t want to catch the blame or deal with aftereffects of any of the decisions made.

Persistence in all things could be a good thing or could be a bad thing, I guess it depends on a person’s motivation and character.  If a person is persistent and has all good intentions their persistence could still come back to bite them in the behind, where as another person who is only persistent in running up the social ladder or getting the upper hand on a situation or even another person can sometimes be very successful.

I think that things like these are their to remind us that life isn’t fair.  Someone who is only trying to do good for another group or person can sometimes never succeed, or not without running through a huge obstacle course that seems to be directly put in their way with the purpose of making life hard for them….And yet someone else can have the most selfish motivations of all and come out on top.

Sometimes you really have to wonder if being persistent is even worth it…you keep climbing and climbing and yet the top of the mountain still seems out of reach.  All you want to do is to see the view from the top and be able to recognize that the feeling of being on top is worth the hike up and the skinned knees from the trips and falls.

It’s impossible to know what will be worth it until you see the outcome.  In the mean time I guess you just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other and hope that you come out on the top, and not squished beneath another’s boot.

I think that expression is an important thing, but there is a when and a where and even a why….if you’re being destructive because you’re just pissed off, then maybe you need to reevaluate things with a little more logic….is it really going to help anyone?  On the other side of things, are pressing your views on someone so heavily that they end up despising you going to do anyone any good?  Nobody wants to hear anyone’s expressive thoughts while they are being shoved down their throats, or only backed with malice and spite.

I think that most intelligent people want to have intelligent conversations with other people on the same maturity and quickness as well as logic levels.  I think that most intelligent people are open to the thoughts of other intelligent people….I wish more people would be open to the expressions and thoughts of other people, even if they don’t agree with them, I that that most intelligent people are intelligent because they know they should listen to the thoughts of other people.  Truly smart people know that they do not know everything and that other people have valid thoughts even if you don’t always agree with everything that they think or feel…everyone is still entitled to think whatever they want…

Expression of thoughts and feelings is a really important thing as long as it is not impeding on anyone else’s right to the same thing.