Shining Thru

Sometimes technology scares me…it’s getting so advanced that I have to wonder if what we’ve seen in the movies could ever happen…a robot take over.  Now, I don’t really think that will happen, at least not any time soon, but I do have to wonder if we are focusing on the wrong things and taking some things to an extreme that really isn’t necessary, and maybe not even a good idea.  Germany has created a car that can drive according to where the driver is looking…now I see some major flaws with this plan and the article I was reading noticed them too, but didn’t seem to think that it was such a big deal.  I don’t understand the practical use for many of these things…a car driven by where the driver is looking….just seems like on the street there are too many times a driver is not looking exactly where they are going, they are checking the traffic around them, checking out a pedestrian….any number of things, maybe they just want to enjoy the drive instead of speeding through staring directly at the road…and they think that this is going to be useful in every day life?  Why not create something that wont break down if you get something in your eye and need to close it for a minute?  Why not make advances in power and money saving issues?  Maybe people capable of these things really do want to make things like I Robot come true?

I think it’s crazy how some things that happens to other people, have nothing to do with you, but can still really offend you.  You have to wonder if you’re making yourself to be more important than you are or if you just really care about the other person….you have to wonder if you have a caring heart or an over involved heart…. I think that both are possibilities, I also think that there is a fine line there.

I hate seeing certain things and I know other people that get really upset when they see completely different things.  So what happens when you’re upset about something that happened to someone close to you, but they are not upset.  Do you let it go?  Try to hype them up?  It isn’t right to disregard your feelings, but it certainly isn’t right to press those feelings on the other person either.  Which leaves you in an odd position, of just deal with it and get over it your own way and then let it go.

Sometimes you try to put yourself in their situation or the situation of the person who did the offending, but the truth is, without actually being in that situation, we have no idea what we would actually do in the reality of the situation.  I find that people are quick to say..”well if that was me….” but in all actuality, there is no way for them to know what they would do.

Looking through the glass at the other side of the window

Looking to see who is out there

Looking to see who is close by

Always watching, Always protecting, Always there

Seeing the people that matter

Seeing the things truly involved in life

Happiness coming to a head

Life leading down the paths we don’t choose

But ending with a smile and love

Sight of true life and a happiness that we thought escaped.

Feeling for them and seeing what they see

Seeing what you know to be true

Hiding behind the masks of the past no more

Embracing the person inside

Accepting the Love being offered.

It’s so strange how tension and stress seems to build up inside of people until they can’t take it any more…it’s also strange how it seems to happen to many people associated with each other at the same time….you can go to work one day and just find out that everyone lost it the day before, including yourself, everyone just sick and tired of everything….

I think it’s good that you hear other people talk about their problems sometimes, sometimes it puts you in check, sometimes it just gives both people someone to talk to.  I think it’s strange how so many people that meet each other in life can be stressed out and all of them have a different thing to be stressed about.  So many things to worry about in this life, and yet there always seems to be other people that worry about completely different things….I don’t think that a lot of the issues are different than each other as far as their importance, they’re just different in their topic.

I think it’s strange what keeps people from snapping, the things that hold them back, help them get through it all, make them relax and feel better.  For some people comfort comes from another person, sometimes a CD, sometimes a movie, sometimes a book, sometimes video games….some people have to let out their stress through exercise or hitting something, other people have to cry it out, while others scream and yet, and still others get dead silent.  What gets a person to the point that they snap and calming themselves down their normal way is not an option???

Heaven…interesting word…I think it means something different to every person on the planet.  Some people don’t believe that such a place exists…some people believe that they can find heaven on earth.  Some people envision fluffy clouds and angels with harps…while others imagine a paradise customized to them.

One of the things that got me to thinking about what Heaven really is, is the movie What Dreams May Come, with Robin Williams.  A very interesting movie that has a different interpretation of heaven and hell…or at least different to what I had grown up hearing for most of my life.  The movie is kind of the same idea as The Lovely Bones as far as Heaven goes…meaning that each person can create their own heaven or they can travel and go to the shared part of heaven and see other people that share a vision of the same things of pleasure and peace.  In both movies, the people have to figure out how heaven operates and they have a guide…I have to wonder if a guardian angel’s (if you believe in such things) job doesn’t end when you die, but rather is just beginning as they have to then guide you through the steps of existence in heaven….

I think that there is a mystery that intrigues a lot of people associated with anything that we can’t see or isn’t found in this life time.  Heaven is one of those things that makes people wonder simply because it is something that wont have an answer until after you die…and even then you might not get to find out, depending on who ends up being right in the long run….Since there is no way to find out until we are indeed dead. Although some people believe that there are “near-death” experiences that reveal at least a slice of heaven or what lies on the way to heaven.  There was even a gospel written by someone who claimed that they went to heaven and were able to see all that lies there, but it was decided that it was not worthy of the Bible.

Heaven can inspire so many thoughts, death, dying, hell, angels, God or gods…..

Good Timing, Bad Timing, the difference can be only moments away from each other, could be one comment less or one comment more, just a word, just a gesture…what kind of things need to be taken into consideration when thinking about what makes good or bad timing?  Why do things need to be timed out at all?  Why do we always try to find the perfect moment to bring up a topic in conversation, or make an advancing move (in a relationship, in the work place, anywhere really).  It seems like everywhere we go is based on timing things out “right”.  And yet, we don’t seem to know what criteria we are being judged on when it comes to timing.

Everyone has their own ideas of what is a good time or bad time, even when it comes to the same experience by two different people at the same time.  I guess it’s one of those things in life that we may never be able to put a definition to because it is different for each individual person.  Come to think of it, I suppose there are a lot of things like that in life….

It’s amazing how some things just make you feel good, it might start with a smile, a silly picture, an inside joke, a small laugh, or a hug.  Something that just brings a smile to your face and the light in your eyes, when you can feel yourself get better from the day.  I think it’s pretty amazing how sometimes one of those things comes at the perfect time, almost as if it was planned.

A call from a friend or a text picture that makes you crack up laughing, or just a thought that makes you giggle a little or feel loved, something that comes when you’re just about to give up on the day and turns the whole thing around.  I think it’s pretty cool that sometimes things work out in a way that you never thought would have happened.  A lot of the time I find that situations come around to something that you never expected.

It’s always a pleasant surprise when you end up feeling good at the end of a blah or bad day.  I think it’s great when you find a new thing that can make you smile or laugh as well. 

Embarrassment is a strange emotion.  It comes when you least expect it and can come in so many forms, in so many places, and from so many different people.  The other thing about embarrassment is that it can last for all sorts of different time spans.  Some people are able to let go of embarrassment rather quickly, while others can hold on to it, and begrudge anyone who saw them get embarrassed.  Some people can even embrace the feeling and turn it into a positive experience because they like all of the attention, while others spend all of their time hiding in the shadows, dodging all of the attention from everyone or at least the people who are not close to them.

It’s amazing how certain people can make you always feel safe and never make fun of you or embarrass you.  It has always interested me to know how some people you can just connect with right away and never look back, never regret that relationship, and never feel betrayed.  I think that we should feel lucky to know people that make us feel safe and secure, people who appreciate us for who we are and don’t hold our little malfunctions, or quirks against us.  These people we should always hold close to our hearts and never let get too far away.

Embarrassment, I think is one feeling that can really tell you a lot about your relationship with the people that you are around.  Some people can make you feel better about it, brush it off, laugh it off, and some people will hold it against you and point it out to everyone who comes your way.

I think it’s pretty interesting how the smallest change can interrupt routine…can cause chaos where there never has been any.  It’s pretty interesting the things that people pick up on and hone in on all of the sudden.  Something as simple as a change in hair style, cut or dye, or maybe losing a few pounds…things things seem to bring in more attention than a person would know what to do with since they aren’t use to being noticed.  It’s interesting how people seem to care so much about what you do with your appearance…they care so much that it causes a distraction to the normal routine of the day…it can cause some positive and uplifting comments from the right person or people, but it can also get annoying when it distracts from the work that needs to be done.  Even flattering comments can be annoying when they are coming from the wrong people…those type of comments can become extremely distracting since they make you feel uncomfortable.

Discomfort is an interesting thing.  Do compliments make a person uncomfortable or comfortable based on what they are said about or who they are from?  Or maybe the discomfort is simply because a person is use to being in the shadows, blending in, and then all of the sudden find themselves accidentally thrown into the spotlight of things….

Every experience in life has a first…first steps, first words, firsts….

As an adult, it’s not much different, there is the first kiss, first broken heart, first vacation, first road-trip, first ……

For me there have been a lot of new firsts in the last week:

The first time I woke up in the middle of the night to go to a park and camp out at 3am in order to see the space shuttle launch at 6:21am…which was really cool by the way.  I’m really excited I got to see a space shuttle launch because I believe the US only has 3 more planned after this.

The first time I got to see an alligator in the wild.

The first time I got to see a manatee in the wild.

The first time I got to see dolphins in the wild, which was really cool, because they were hunting instead of just going for a swim, so I got to see one leap out of the water with a fish in its mouth.

The first time I got to swim with sharks, that was a lot of fun, but nerve wrecking all the same.  A really cool experience, but it will probably be the first and the last time for that.

First time I got to go in a huge wave pool, which was a lot of fun, riding in on the 7 foot waves.

I never would have believed that one relaxing week could contain so much fun filled first time experiences….so many things in so short of time.  Believe it or not I still had time to relax.  It’s amazing how many first time experiences we have and sometimes we don’t even notice or appreciate the experience until years later.  Sometimes other people realize the importance before we do.  But at least these first time experiences will be things that we can talk about years down the road.