Shining Thru

Your smile is better than any rainbow,

The clouds seem to glide out of the way when you’re near

The storm only reflects the beauty, power, and passion

The shine in your eyes is enough to warm my heart

My heart can feel you coming as it starts to flutter with anticipation

Your arms around me provide more comfort than any blanket,

More security than any weapon

Your love is a treasure that I will not be able to find anywhere but here

I could search the world over and not find anything as good as you.

Trusting people is an interesting thing….you can’t really have close relationships, sexual or otherwise without the foundation of trust…and yet people throw it away as if it was dirty laundry.  You have to wonder if maybe you have given the gift of trust away to easily, and haven’t held the proper interviews….a bunch of things happen when you realize that something that you thought was there really isn’t and maybe never was.

Do you go on trusting people and risking being hurt, and betrayed or keep everything tight up inside and never let anyone in?

What happens when you are no longer sure what friendship means?  Or relationship?  What happens when you don’t know how you should interact with people because you just don’t know what could happen in the future.  I’m sure some people would argue that you need to treasure the time that you have and feel blessed that you had certain people in your life at all…but then what happens when that is suddenly taken from you, no warning, no goodbye, just gone….leaving the empty footsteps in the wake, just waiting to disappear with the wind.  It’s easy to say that  you just want to treasure the time that you have, until that time is gone, and then you have to realize that things are not always that simple.  I think, more times than not, people find themselves wanting that friendship, or that relationship back, if for nothing else, so they can feel that trust they thought they shared with the person again.  Even most friendships have an emotional connection that comes tumbling down when the people separate.

More than likely, the emptiness will fill again if you let it, but of course that leaves the opportunity open for history to repeat itself once again.  So you have to make the decision, do you allow yourself the chance to get hurt and accept new friends into your life, or do you hold back and keep to yourself to never feel the betrayal of a friend shutting you out?

It’s amazing the advances that have been made in communication in the past 100 years, and yet it seems like people are communicating less and less, which is hard to believe with emails, twitter, facebook, blackberries and everything else that people have become addicted to in the past several years.  With all of the comments and remarks that are made back and forth between people these days, I have to wonder how much actually gets said.

Some people have emotional breakdowns over what is posted on facebook, or someone’s blog, or God forbid, there is something wrong with their internet and they are cut off.    It’s funny when the power goes out and you see people look at each other in wonder, asking what are we suppose to do, as if there are not activities outside the world of technology.  It gets even funnier when someone does come up with something and they think, I’ll just message someone on the computer or email them or some other form of communication that doesn’t work, instead of simply calling them or going over to see them.

Actually going some place just to visit with people seems to have almost completely disappeared.  I have to wonder why we allow ourselves to rely on technology the way we do.  What is so important about checking our email as soon as it comes to the inbox, or feeling lost when we have no signal on our cell phone and can’t receive the text messages?

I’m not denying that communication and technology are important, I use them all of the time, in fact, I am one of those people that feels lost without access to the internet, even though I don’t use it every day, there is some type of comfort that comes with knowing that it is there if I want to be able to use it.  We expect communication to be instant these days, I can’t remember the last time I actually sat down and wrote a letter, even birthday cards are becoming fewer and fewer, when you can save the postage and simply send an ecard or message them on facebook or send a text.

So is it better to have instant communication or more heartfelt conversation?

I thought it was interesting today watching CNN…someone brought up the fact that the Media must have gone crazy…the only things that they have to say against President Obama is that there is an extra in a music video that looks like him and that he’s not showing enough emotion about the oil spill.  I mean, what do these people really want?  him to break down in sobs so that he can appear weak to the entire nation instead of strong and level headed.  They even insulted the fact that he was in business pants when he was down on the site…what did they expect for a Presidential Press Event?  I thought that the reporter who was commenting about this whole drama made a good point when he posed the question, do you want the President to play act the part for you, or go ahead and actually do something…

I have to wonder how often it is that the media gets people all hyped up about the wrong issues and how often people are pulled into the drama of the media craze….How often do people put their own priorities, thoughts and feelings aside because they have become caught up in the media frenzy and are now stuck on the point that has been driven into their head every time they have turned on the news or looked at the paper.

I wish our country would go back to thinking for themselves instead of being programmed into thinking whatever other people want them to think.

I don’t understand people that think other people only exist to serve them….they only prove their point by ignoring people until they need something from them, and then all of the sudden they want to be your best friend…or at least until they get what they want from you.  I wish I could understand the mentality that would actually lead a person to think that it is ok to treat people that way, as if they are the Ruler of the land and everyone is just another humble servant who can’t wait to grant their every wish and desire. 

It’s amazing how people choose to interact with each other, or at least with certain people.  As if the people they encounter don’t feel put off at all by the treatment.  Have they never felt hurt or anger or frustration with someone for similar treatment?  Are they not able to feel these things because they are so centered around themselves that it doesn’t even occur to them to feel anything because they don’t notice how others treat them? 

I have to wonder if people realize how they appear when other people witness their treatment of the people around them.  Personally when I see someone who just uses another person, it makes me not want to trust them, or even help them out in any way.  It kind of makes me just want to let them flounder because they are obviously use to people giving them exactly what they want, when they want it; as if they are entitled to something that the rest of us can only dream of.

Love is a very complicated emotion that is shown in numerous ways in many different types of relationships between all types of people.  Love can be shown in an action, with a word, a thought, a look, it all depends on what kind of love you want to show and to whom.  Love interests me because it seems to be one of the things that is sewn into the fabric of our being.

It’s always so wonderful when an unexpected show of love shows up and is appreciated.  It’s so nice when you can see the emotion radiating from the eyes of the one you love as they look at you in the passion of the moment.  It fills your whole body with the warmth of love.

There is always the other views of love, the view of the cynic, a father, a brother, a sister, a mother, a grandparent, a friend….I think that everyone has their own version of love, and everyone experiences it differently, which is what makes it such a wonderful thing when you can find it and feel the real thing

A walk through the woods not able to see through the leaves

Trying to see the sun and the light

Stuck int he shadows and darkness

Just enough light to play tricks on your eyes

Seeing things that are wondering around in the mist of fiction and storybooks

Reality catching up with you when you turn the corner

Enclosed in darkness once again just when you thought you had reached the clearing

Not even light to see your foot path

Just the specs in tree tops

Nothing reaching the bottom of the woods

Nothing reaching the path you so desperately want to see

Looking but not seeing where you are headed

Hoping you will recognize something soon.

“Life is all about timing… the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable… attainable. Have the patience, wait it out It’s all about timing.” Stacey Charter

Patience and Time…two very interesting concepts.  I am beginning to think that at times people can be very selfish with both.  If you’re not patient with the people you love and care about then you are being selfish and if you expect everything right away and not allow for time to take care of itself you’re being selfish.  I have come to the realization today that patience really is a virtue and the best things come in their own time and we just have to be patient and wait for the happenings in life to work themselves out.  I like this quote, life really is about timing…and you need to know when the right time to make a move and when is the right time to sit back and listen…sometimes great things happen when you just see where life is willing to take you all on its own.

More on time….

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn’t happen at once.” Albert Einstein

I really like this quote because I think it’s true.  I don’t believe time actually exists…I think it is something that we have made up in order to make everything make sense, give some type of order to the events of life…what if everything does happen at once but we have trained ourselves to think linear when it really isn’t?  What if we can’t see what happens right in front of us simply because we don’t think it’s time for that particular thing to happen?

The thrill of a new experience, the excitement of the build up and anticipation

Leave you wondering what will happen next, all the possibilities race through your mind before you have time to latch onto one of those threads

A sense of trust and wonder overwhelm all other senses as you make your way through the moment

Fumbling through, absorbing everything into the whole body

Feelings and emotions flowing through the passion of love and pure elation

The warmth of the other half of your soul found in the body next to yours

Evidence of the mutual passionate bliss in their eyes, mind, body, and heart

Glowing radiation of the new experience shared and enjoyed

A memory that cannot be erased or forgotten

Something to replay in the recesses of the mind

Something to give power and strength as you are reminded of the love and passion

Reality blurred into the wondrous fabrication of peaceful passion