Shining Thru

She saw him coming across the room, slipping up behind her, she felt his gentle touch

Looking down at her glass on the bar, she shivered as she felt the hand run down her back

Feeling something that she hadn’t felt in so long…but still a little uncertain

Wanting so much to fulfill the hole deep within, she looked up and smiled as he whispered in her ear

She accepts his guidance and gets up to leave, he puts the money on the bar

They walk out into the clean, open night air on the street, she feels the squeeze of what she hopes is a protective arm

She walks out wondering if this is better than alone at the bar

Someone, anyone to fill night, she continues walking

Deep breath, he escorts her into a cab

He smiles a charming grin and nudget her when the driver asks, where to?

She hesitates and then gives her address

All the time wondering if this is a good idea but not wanting to spend another lonely night

She unlocks the door and invites him in

Turning on a few lights with little small talk and a tour of the house

With great ease he stops her in the bedroom, pulling her close

She shivers in his arms, how much she has craved an intimate and gentle touch these past few lonely months

She willingly accepts his soft caress and offered kisses

She eagerly allows the kiss to get deeper as he pulls her closer still

Sharing the moment of the night with moonlight flooding the now darkened room

Tossed onto the bed she watches him undress with a flare of excitement beating in her chest

Admiring his seemingly passionate love of the moment, they spend the night intimately entwined together

But when she wakes, he’s no where to be found

Was it all a dream, not so lucky, just another piece to a broken puzzle

She is again consumed by the emptiness

Hurt feelings and loneliness fills every ounce of her being

She can’t even think beyond wondering why she can’t be loved….Truly loved

Why did everyone use her and leave her?

Why did she always find herself alone?

The thought swirl through her mind as she prepares for another day alone.

How much would you give up for someone that you love?  Your money?  Your property?  Your time?  You life?  How much would you expect someone to sacrifice for you?  Can you really count on anyone to give up anything for you?  Are their certain people that you know without a doubt you would do absolutely anything for?  Your children?  Your siblings?  Your parents?  Your wife, husband, girlfriend, boyfriend?  Who is it that you know you would do anything for because their happiness and well-being are more important to you then your own.  Or maybe there isn’t anyone that you feel that way about.  What would it be like to never love someone above yourself?  I feel bad for people who don’t ever get to experience that feeling because they are too self involved or too selfish to let another person get that high in their affections.  It’s really sad when you see that people who you think wouldn’t have a problem doing what’s right for the ones that they love, turn their back on them when they are in need, or go to absolute extremes, not thinking about the consequences for the very person they are trying to protect.