Shining Thru

I’m not sure where the younger generation is headed, but it doesn’t look good.  Legislators keep trying to increase the curriculum and make everything look good on paper, but what it’s actually doing is forcing kids to give up.  No child left behind is plowing students over by trying to make them keep up with some made up standards by politicians that have never been inside a classroom, other than as a student.  I saw in the news that another student brought another gun to school….I think that it is so sad that we have to worry about such things.  As always the comments on the article were much more interesting that the article itself…people say all sorts of things from where are the parents, to that school is for the trash of the district anyway…Even if it is an alternative school how can we possible call children trash….Schools have a lot of issues these days and it scares me to think that these are the people of the generation that are suppose to be running things in the future.  If we don’t get it together and start worrying about the right issues I don’t understand how we expect improvements. What good are nice looking standardized test scores in the records office if children are running around on the streets or bringing the streets to the schools.  I don’t think that we realize all of the time what kind of issues are in the homes for the young people today, but I also don’t think that we should be making excuses for anyone, I think that the first step to having any real improvement is to hold people responsible for their own actions.

It is strange how the smallest thing can make a wall collapse.  I think that people are like that too.  When emotions cause hairline fractures in our soul, confidence, mind, and heart, it only takes the smallest amount of force to break a person.

It could be something so mall that any other time it wouldn’t have been a big deal, but as you hear about it, everything else associated with anything or anyone involved in the situation rises to the top and comes pouring out in your words, emotions, and tears.  A full collapse of the strong facade.

Tears run down your cheek and a sort of self hate rises up as you can no longer control your emotions and keep them hidden from view.  It only takes a pin hole in a balloon and it only takes one moment for a person.

Collapse of the world around you can happen so quickly, everything that you knew to be true can change in a heartbeat.  I guess that is life….always changing, never knowing.

What happens when the followers become the leaders?  Ever heard the phrase, too many Chiefs and not enough Indians?  It seems to be the way some things are working these days.  Everyone wants to be in charge and feel the power, move up on the ladder so to speak.  With everyone grasping for the power stick, a chance to get behind the wheel, people forget to do their own job, fill the position they are already in….

Why is it that people spend so much time trying to prove themselves that they look plain stupid because they look like they aren’t even capable of doing the position that they are already suppose to be doing.  They try to increase their position by sabotaging those around them, or by stepping on toes and trying to do jobs that belong to other people.

I don’t understand people that don’t want to go through the proper channels of things, who can’t simply feel good about doing a good days work and know that they are doing the best they can at what they are suppose to be doing.  Instead they are fighting for something that might not even be in the cards for them ever, much less right then at that moment.  Just because they want to skip steps to get to the top of the pyramid faster, doesn’t mean that it’s right.

The struggle in the game of tug-a-war played by the adults of our society is obvious…and annoying.  Sometimes the adults I observe act more like children than the kids I know….you want to tell them to stop trying to grow up so fast and enjoy what they have while they have it…because when you get to the top you might be disappointed with the view.

If you could change the past what moment would you choose to change?  Not just in your life time, but if you could change one event in all of the world’s history what would it be?  How could you possibly know the outcome of that choice?  Would it be worth possibly erasing your own existence from the earth?  What if the moment you choose, even if it is centuries ago, is the moment that makes it so that your parents never meet and therefore you are never born?

If we had time machines, I am afraid that people would jump into them without ever seriously considering the fact that they might screw up their chances of ever existing, or change the world completely….what if that is what somebody wants…a whole new existence?  I think that many people would jump into the past and think it was pretty awesome to be there, myself included, but what if they just wanted to change one thing….then what?

How would you ever choose what one thing you wanted to change in history?  Everyone’s perspective is different, because everyone has been affected by the outcome of events in a different way…The impact of a single event may mean nothing to someone from NYC in the United States, but might be everything to a whole village in China…

We never know how the events of history have formed because we weren’t there…but what if we could go back and see for ourselves how things came about?  Would we want to change them?

Unforeseen history in the making…every day we go through and every person that we meet goes into our personal history book.  Never knowing what’s coming can’t look back until it’s printed on the pages.  Sometimes I wonder how my story will end up.

Watching people out in crowded spaces sometimes I wonder what their story is….some people look creepy some people look happy some people look distant and sad….I wonder where they have been and how their stories will end.

Everything that we experience helps to form the life that we will end up with, the life that will be looked at probably only upon our death, maybe not even then….  I think that very few people have their lives examined, do people care about the history that the average person has put into the world?  What if the average Joe down the street is the one who started the ripples that ended with something great happening, and someone else getting the credit?

What if people are linked to your pages that you don’t even realize because they are in a different volume, a new series but still a spin off and are connected to your pages?

The book of life is an ongoing history account of all of the people in the world…all of the events and situations that they encountered, how the first event has spiraled, penetrating into lives that were not even an afterthought or the beginnings of a thought when the even occurred, into lives that the person was not even aware existed.  Degrees of separation in life are only important when you need to prove something….what about all of the events and history of the every day life that is never questioned or examined…what if someone were to look at what was really written in the every day history book?

It’s strange how much influence one moment can have on a person or on a day or on a life….One moment of intense pleasure can erase a lot of pain and disappointment.  One moment of disappointment can cause a life time of pain and influence if someone allows themselves to dwell on it.  A moment of time can, if allowed by a person, create an obsession with either guilt or pleasure to the point that it influences the rest of their life….

A moment can be any length of time.  It could be in a smile, an event, a day, a month, a phase of life….It could be in a movie or a book that you read, or maybe a person that you meet or hear speak and are introduced to new ideas.

Have you ever been controlled by your feelings in a situation?  Or had an incredible time that makes up for a lot of failures, mistakes, and obstacles…something that is so wonderful it gives you positive energy and encouragement to simply keep going….even if you felt like you were on the edge of giving up that one moment makes it so that you can keep moving…??  It’s an amazing experience.

The wind blows gently along the tops of the trees

Like a whisper in the ear, it gently passes not leaving a trace

Simply an impression

You wonder if it’s real, if it really happened

Did you just imagine or is it revealed?

Thinking too hard about what you can’t prove

What you can’t be sure of…

The hidden untruths

Lie deep within the unread rules

The gaps between the lines that you can’t write on

Something that is there but unseen

So many things in life

So many unseen futures

No where to turn where there isn’t a reckoning

It doesn’t matter if the glass is half full if it never comes off the shelf

Leave the things you know to yourself

Or fight through all of the unrecoverable facts

Thinking, breathing, living

I think there are moments in all of our lives when we wish we had a freeze ray like Dr. Horrible.  If we could just stop time for a little while and get all of those nagging chores done and still have time to relax, or simply to stop things in order to get our time together.  I can completely understand why someone would want to invent something like that.  Sometimes time goes by so fast that you don’t know where it went.  Other times change is so scary that you want to just freeze things so that you can keep them the same…just a little longer, put off the inevitable change a little bit longer.  Or maybe you’re experiencing such a great moment that you want it to last for awhile.  Who wouldn’t want to be able to stop time?

If you were able to stop time for a little while, what would you do with it?  Take some time to relax?  Get a massage?  Get things done?  Go on a vacation?  Would stopping time actually solve anything?  Would all of the problems and the fear of change still be there when you eventually unfroze everything?  Would you need or want to unfreeze things?  It’s an interesting thought….Like time travel, I wonder if it would be as great as it is in theory.  Theories are great because they never go wrong…everything works in theory.  I still think I would like the option of stopping time….Making sure there is time for all aspects of life.  Not caught up with work and ignoring the social life at all….What moment would you freeze, or who would you freeze if you had the time?

For those of you who have seen Dr. Horrible in action, you know that the freeze ray freezes a person, so who would you choose to freeze in time?  That one person who wont stop talking or who is always knocking on your door or calling your phone?  Is that the person you would like to just sort of take a time out for and stop time for them?  Would you pick the person who annoys you the most?  Or maybe the person you want to look at the most, but just don’t have time for at the moment?…..So many possibilities.

What can be labeled as a major life change?  Having a baby, getting married….I think most people would agree that those are major life changes, but is it possible to have a major life change by simply having one thought or being exposed to one new idea?  I have to think that one thought affected anyone who had been in a major revolution and that the idea of  revolution changed their lives.  Can a small idea change your life?  Something small that you cling to and hang on to years later…maybe you don’t even remember where the idea came from, it just becomes part of you…or maybe you remember exactly where it came from…  Either way, I think that people gather small ideas and latch on all the time.  Reading a book, talking to new people, watching a movie…all of these things help shape us….even if we’re exposed to something that we don’t agree with, not agree shapes us in the same way that agree would.  I think that all new ideas have the potential to change our lives….

Ideas and words are extremely powerful and have the potential to change lives, start wars, maybe even change a culture…even if that change is spread through a widely read magazine or a movie that is passed from one group of friends to the next.  One word from a loved one can mean the world to someone or bring it crashing down around them.  One idea from a movie or a book or a comic can spin the mind into a whirlwind of thoughts and creativity.  Maybe changing the way a person lives and thinks forever….

What constitutes a major change?  Does it have to be a new life or can it be something that is planted into your life and grows to consume it?

Summer nights die down as the stars still shine bright

Bright and cold they look down as the nights cool off

No more celebration bomb fires of carefree summers

The cool autumn nights alerting us to the changing winds of winter

The natural stages of change that come with being alive

Every being must experience the different seasons of life

Time comes and goes, people love, and experience new things

All things pass through the seasons of life.