Shining Thru

I think that expression is an important thing, but there is a when and a where and even a why….if you’re being destructive because you’re just pissed off, then maybe you need to reevaluate things with a little more logic….is it really going to help anyone?  On the other side of things, are pressing your views on someone so heavily that they end up despising you going to do anyone any good?  Nobody wants to hear anyone’s expressive thoughts while they are being shoved down their throats, or only backed with malice and spite.

I think that most intelligent people want to have intelligent conversations with other people on the same maturity and quickness as well as logic levels.  I think that most intelligent people are open to the thoughts of other intelligent people….I wish more people would be open to the expressions and thoughts of other people, even if they don’t agree with them, I that that most intelligent people are intelligent because they know they should listen to the thoughts of other people.  Truly smart people know that they do not know everything and that other people have valid thoughts even if you don’t always agree with everything that they think or feel…everyone is still entitled to think whatever they want…

Expression of thoughts and feelings is a really important thing as long as it is not impeding on anyone else’s right to the same thing.

It’s amazing what triggers emotions….it can seem like the strangest times and for things that seem sooo disconnected from what you are currently experiencing you start to question your level of logic.  It’s actually a nice safety check in place to know that the emotions seem so off base that you have to sit there and at least try to logic them out….the trigger is soon dismissed as some type of fluke in the system.

Sometimes a trigger can happen at the perfect moment of passion and thrill, but on the flip side, the smallest thing can cause the biggest distraction when it triggers a slew of memories and emotions.

Have you ever felt a surge of jealousy or some other emotion that simply overcomes your whole mind and energy while it lasts.  You seem to only have two options when something like that happens, either wait for it to pass, act on it, or logic it out.  The third option is the hardest of the three in my opinion.  It means you have to step back for a moment and realize that your emotions can lie and that they can be completely sporadic, irrelevant, and disconnected from the reality surrounding you.

Strength crumbling before your eyes

Watching it dissipate and run through your fingers

Trying to pull it up, not finding it within

Summons are failing no matter how hard you try

Can’t keep going, not strong enough to walk through

Not strong enough to stop the flood gate holding back the emotions

Trying to hang on, but feel the fingers slipping

The grasp failing and fingers scrambling for the edge

Not wanting to drown in the reality you’ve been avoiding

The breath comes only into choking sobs

Tears that refuse to obey your orders of resistance

All the lack of strength, life wearing you down

It is strange how the smallest thing can make a wall collapse.  I think that people are like that too.  When emotions cause hairline fractures in our soul, confidence, mind, and heart, it only takes the smallest amount of force to break a person.

It could be something so mall that any other time it wouldn’t have been a big deal, but as you hear about it, everything else associated with anything or anyone involved in the situation rises to the top and comes pouring out in your words, emotions, and tears.  A full collapse of the strong facade.

Tears run down your cheek and a sort of self hate rises up as you can no longer control your emotions and keep them hidden from view.  It only takes a pin hole in a balloon and it only takes one moment for a person.

Collapse of the world around you can happen so quickly, everything that you knew to be true can change in a heartbeat.  I guess that is life….always changing, never knowing.

What makes us react to different things in different ways?  Have you ever had someone have a completely unexpected reaction to something that happened in front of you, or maybe even something that you’ve said?  Ever say something that you thought was just an every day question and have someone break out in tears and leave you standing there speechless, trying to comfort…but not knowing the problem.  So now there is a crying girl and you’re trying to guess at what to say because you’re trying to guess what the problem is…..one doesn’t work on, ok, move on to the next….and hopefully she will feel better….????

Other times maybe people laugh at things that you can’t see the humor in, or get angry about something and leave you wondering why….Not something that was a joke and someone took it to heart, but an everyday random comment that just pissed off the person that happened to be with you at the time…

It’s interesting the way people react to different things.  Some people get happy about just about everything, or at least try to find something good in every situation; others of course look for something to be angry about, others make everything into a dramatic production….

It’s always interesting the way that people handle things that they come across in life.  Things that pop up as obstacles to get around, over, or through.  Which ever way works.  I think it’s important to remember that nobody reacts the same way to any situation.

Doesn’t it always seem like when you give up on surprises that they appear out of nowhere.  Just when you thought that spring was on the way, the whole deep south of the United States gets blanketed in snow…and Vancouver is hauling in snow for the winter Olympics with highs of 62 degrees.  Funny how things work out.

Or the surprise ending of a book that comes at the last possible second when you thought that things had already concluded and the author was just trying to wind everything down and throw in a few more conclusions that you already realized yourself….and then all of the sudden they throw something else out there that you didn’t think was even possible to make happen with only the couple of pages left in the book…but they do it, and it turns out to be logical….brave strategy, people like me end up with mixed feelings about how the book ended, not appreciating the surprise, but knowing that it makes perfectly logical sense for the whole storyline.

Movies do it to…all the time, especially by writers and directors that want to set everyone up for a sequel if things go well with the first one at the box office.

There are all sorts of surprises….how do you feel about them?  I know some people that hate them, I know some people who have mixed feelings about them, and others who love them and I mean love them…the best thing in the world for them is a surprise birthday party or a gift for no reason.

They say that laughter is good for the soul…I’m not sure exactly what “good” means, but I think there is a general understanding of it, even if the dictionary version can’t possibly encompass all that the word is intended to mean.

It’s funny how certain people, pictures, movies, books, etc can always make you laugh, no matter what kind of mood you are in or what kind of day you have had…some people or things can unlock that thing that makes your smile turn into a laugh.  I love to see people laugh, I think that people were right when they told me that laughter is contagious.  It just seems to flow so easily out of some people…

I think it’s interesting how no one laughs the same.  Everyone’s laughter is different.  Some people laugh easily and loudly, booming out their emotional expression; while others can only manage a nervous giggle at best, or a half hearted..hah… that sounds more like someone clearing their throat than the sound of someone who is happy.

Laughter can make your day, or at least mine…if I’m having a bad day and someone can make me laugh, a lot of times it saves me from crying.  It’s almost like laughter has some type of magical power that washes over you and releases a lot of the tension and stress of the day.  I love it when I can start the day off laughing.  I’m always thankful when I can talk to someone who can always make me laugh in the morning, it just sets me up for a good day, a good start at least.  I have found that if I can laugh in the morning, then things that happen throughout the day never seem quite as bad.

True Passion crouches in the shadows of desire

Knowing revelation can’t be possible

Darkness is the safety vest

Hidden away from the light of hypocrisy

Life ticks on by as you crawl against the wall

Hidden from existence, except in secret whispers

The most heart filling whispers that make your body quiver

The heated moments that live on in the dreams of the wearer

The closet tucked inside the hidden subject

The passion wells up inside the skin

It wont let go until it explodes….

Drifting off just before the light barrier.

The feeling of worry is a strange one…half the time people worry about things before they even know it’s something to worry about.  Worry can make a person concerned about an event or fact that isn’t even fact yet….Many people get partial information or the lack of contact and start working over it in their mind until every possible circumstance has gone through, scenarios that make you angry, frustrated, or just plain scared.  You hope for the best, but the best is frustrating as well.

Amazing how someone can take a tiny piece of information and blow it up into a full out story before anything actually happens.  People can worry and stress or live in denial or passiveness.  Either extreme is useless in moving through whatever is going on.

We have to find the information, get the details and then look at everything with a new perspective.  A clean look with logic will generally wipe out both extremes, doesn’t mean that what’s going on is any less important, but at least they can be looked at logically….able to push the emotions aside in order to figure out what is going on.  You can’t blow things out of proportion, just like you can’t continue to ignore their existence….Both extremes will get you nowhere productive, both extremes keep you from moving forward…