Shining Thru

The thrill of a new experience, the excitement of the build up and anticipation

Leave you wondering what will happen next, all the possibilities race through your mind before you have time to latch onto one of those threads

A sense of trust and wonder overwhelm all other senses as you make your way through the moment

Fumbling through, absorbing everything into the whole body

Feelings and emotions flowing through the passion of love and pure elation

The warmth of the other half of your soul found in the body next to yours

Evidence of the mutual passionate bliss in their eyes, mind, body, and heart

Glowing radiation of the new experience shared and enjoyed

A memory that cannot be erased or forgotten

Something to replay in the recesses of the mind

Something to give power and strength as you are reminded of the love and passion

Reality blurred into the wondrous fabrication of peaceful passion

Living, Breathing…but not thinking or feeling

Pull the string and watch them say the programed phrases

Keep on watching as they march across the room

Living on in the program of society

Not able to change the ones and zeroes that surround us

Watching them makes you sad

You check the reflection of your mind

Not watching to turn into plastic

Not wanting to turn into something fake

Not willing to give up the emotions of life

The hurt and the frustration are traded for love and happiness

Tears of joy replace those of saddness

Giving up the pain isn’t worth giving up the power of thought

The power of knowledge and experience

The love and life that you would miss out on

Frustration mounting to the peak

Making it easier all the time to travel further down the path

Away from the brier and into the clearing

Into the sun and warmth of relaxation

Into a place that fits well and isn’t a constant struggle

Not even waving or looking back you walk on

No longer doubting the choice, just trying to let go

Let go of the emotions, frustration, anger, and guilt

Moving on to better things, until another mountain appears

The frustration makes it easier to keep walking away

If you had to choose one picture to sum up your entire life, would you be able to do it?  Would you be able to choose one for even a day?  Would it be an image with you in it, of an object, a loved one?  Would it be of laughter or of silence?

How would you sum up a day that takes you on an emotional roller coaster?  Up and down, all day long, happy moments, fun moments, sad moments, angry moments, annoyed moments, back to cheerful and loving, or hot and sexy, and then back to disappointment or frustration….

Is there a way to describe a life that is open to all emotions and possibilities in something as short as a photo?  What would your photo contain?  What would a glimpse into your life look like?  How long or short would it need to be in order to fully grasp the summary of your life?  Is it better or worse that the filmstrip would be short?  Less complications, but less explorations….Less hurt, but less love….Would it be better if the film was longer…or would it be better just to live snapshot to snapshot, never worrying about the whole picture?

It’s strange how some things just all of the sudden fall into place.  All of the worry and anxiety that comes with the natural problems that come your way in life…and then all of the sudden they are solved, things just come up and pop into place right in front of you…impossible to miss.  The problem being that sometimes it’s hard to convince yourself to relax and accept that things have worked out…it’s like you’re waiting for something else to go wrong instead of enjoying the moment of everything being caught up and in place.

It’s hard to let go of the feelings that have become a regular part of the routine…almost like you don’t know how to feel if it’s not one of those feelings of frustration, despair, anxiety, or resentment.  Somethings can make you feel loved and wonderful, but then you still feel like you should be taking care of the problems that you have been dealing with so long…it’s hard to even know what do with the free time you have found thrown into your lap.  You have to keep telling yourself that everything has worked out and there isn’t anything you need to be worried about any more. …. leaves you in an odd place.

It’s amazing how you get so caught up in certain things that you don’t know where the time goes…pieces of your life…spaces of time that just seem to disappear, sometimes when you’re caught up in the stress of things, sometimes it’s because you’re relaxing in the moment or just hanging out with the people that you care about…having fun.  Sometimes you can remember every little detail, other times you sit there and have to wonder what you did for that many hours…because it seems like only a few minutes went by.

I think it’s kind of crazy how we have let ourselves get so wrapped up in things that we spend most of our life being worried about what comes next on the schedule…where does the plan go from here?  I think that a lot more people would be happier if they just let things go as they will….

Now, I understand that you have to plan certain things out, or live in a constant state of chaos, but sometimes, the schedule should be the last thing that you are thinking about.  Sometimes living in the moment is all that matters, because those moments will be the details that you remember, and you will regret passing them by just to keep up with some imaginary time table that you made up one day over a cup of coffee…

Vines slowly creeping up

Time getting away from you

Time passes if you are ready or not

The flowers bloom and die

Coming again the next year round

Covering and taking over

Unit the exits are blocked

The beauty that has to be cut away for the escape

A torturous adventure having emotions torn in two

Going forward to go out, or being trapped by the beauty

Moving along inside the comfort of the walls

The flowers of the season

The light of the days

Quickly fading inside the beauty

That takes over from the outside

Quickly covering all in sight

Looking through the glass at the other side of the window

Looking to see who is out there

Looking to see who is close by

Always watching, Always protecting, Always there

Seeing the people that matter

Seeing the things truly involved in life

Happiness coming to a head

Life leading down the paths we don’t choose

But ending with a smile and love

Sight of true life and a happiness that we thought escaped.

Feeling for them and seeing what they see

Seeing what you know to be true

Hiding behind the masks of the past no more

Embracing the person inside

Accepting the Love being offered.

It’s so strange how tension and stress seems to build up inside of people until they can’t take it any more…it’s also strange how it seems to happen to many people associated with each other at the same time….you can go to work one day and just find out that everyone lost it the day before, including yourself, everyone just sick and tired of everything….

I think it’s good that you hear other people talk about their problems sometimes, sometimes it puts you in check, sometimes it just gives both people someone to talk to.  I think it’s strange how so many people that meet each other in life can be stressed out and all of them have a different thing to be stressed about.  So many things to worry about in this life, and yet there always seems to be other people that worry about completely different things….I don’t think that a lot of the issues are different than each other as far as their importance, they’re just different in their topic.

I think it’s strange what keeps people from snapping, the things that hold them back, help them get through it all, make them relax and feel better.  For some people comfort comes from another person, sometimes a CD, sometimes a movie, sometimes a book, sometimes video games….some people have to let out their stress through exercise or hitting something, other people have to cry it out, while others scream and yet, and still others get dead silent.  What gets a person to the point that they snap and calming themselves down their normal way is not an option???

Embarrassment is a strange emotion.  It comes when you least expect it and can come in so many forms, in so many places, and from so many different people.  The other thing about embarrassment is that it can last for all sorts of different time spans.  Some people are able to let go of embarrassment rather quickly, while others can hold on to it, and begrudge anyone who saw them get embarrassed.  Some people can even embrace the feeling and turn it into a positive experience because they like all of the attention, while others spend all of their time hiding in the shadows, dodging all of the attention from everyone or at least the people who are not close to them.

It’s amazing how certain people can make you always feel safe and never make fun of you or embarrass you.  It has always interested me to know how some people you can just connect with right away and never look back, never regret that relationship, and never feel betrayed.  I think that we should feel lucky to know people that make us feel safe and secure, people who appreciate us for who we are and don’t hold our little malfunctions, or quirks against us.  These people we should always hold close to our hearts and never let get too far away.

Embarrassment, I think is one feeling that can really tell you a lot about your relationship with the people that you are around.  Some people can make you feel better about it, brush it off, laugh it off, and some people will hold it against you and point it out to everyone who comes your way.