Shining Thru

“Life is all about timing… the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable… attainable. Have the patience, wait it out It’s all about timing.” Stacey Charter

Patience and Time…two very interesting concepts.  I am beginning to think that at times people can be very selfish with both.  If you’re not patient with the people you love and care about then you are being selfish and if you expect everything right away and not allow for time to take care of itself you’re being selfish.  I have come to the realization today that patience really is a virtue and the best things come in their own time and we just have to be patient and wait for the happenings in life to work themselves out.  I like this quote, life really is about timing…and you need to know when the right time to make a move and when is the right time to sit back and listen…sometimes great things happen when you just see where life is willing to take you all on its own.

More on time….

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn’t happen at once.” Albert Einstein

I really like this quote because I think it’s true.  I don’t believe time actually exists…I think it is something that we have made up in order to make everything make sense, give some type of order to the events of life…what if everything does happen at once but we have trained ourselves to think linear when it really isn’t?  What if we can’t see what happens right in front of us simply because we don’t think it’s time for that particular thing to happen?

I was reading a list of memorable quotes listed by USA Today and one of the quotes caught my attention…

“Obviously a major malfunction.”

Steve Nesbitt, NASA public affairs officer, Jan. 28, 1986, shortly after the space shuttle Challenger exploded.

I feel like this quote can be applied to how we feel when looking at something that happens in life.  Sometimes you can only look at a situation and say “oh shit”…..I mean, really, what else is there to say?  It’s done, over with, a major malfunction in the plans that you had set forth and were going well until that point.  But now it’s in the past, you might not even be sure what went wrong, it probably doesn’t matter what went wrong, it simply did, and now you have a mess.  Just like the pieces of the space shuttle, floating out into open space.

Sometimes a moment catches you so off guard that it’s like it happens in slow motion, or in a daze, or just replays over and over in your head…and there is still nothing to say other than….it’s obviously a major malfunction.  Nothing more…nothing less….what else is there to say at that point?

Does it ever feel like things happen without rhyme or reason, that there is no pattern to anything that happens in life?  Even though at other times it feels like everything is linked together and you could never have the same day without every single tiny detail working perfectly….

Why is it that sometimes things come out of no where and hit us like a brick wall?  Why is it that while many events throughout the day are predictable, there is always something that happens that you never would have seen coming, no matter what angle you looked at it before it happened.

Some things are so random in this life that the quote “crazy random happenstance” really stuck out to me from the movie “Dr. Horrible’s Sing-A-Long Blog”  I thought that it was cleverly used in the movie as a very ironic situation because the character is speaking of a very planned event.  I have a friend who says that the most important part of spontaneity is careful planning.  That phrase has always interested me.

If you could change the past what moment would you choose to change?  Not just in your life time, but if you could change one event in all of the world’s history what would it be?  How could you possibly know the outcome of that choice?  Would it be worth possibly erasing your own existence from the earth?  What if the moment you choose, even if it is centuries ago, is the moment that makes it so that your parents never meet and therefore you are never born?

If we had time machines, I am afraid that people would jump into them without ever seriously considering the fact that they might screw up their chances of ever existing, or change the world completely….what if that is what somebody wants…a whole new existence?  I think that many people would jump into the past and think it was pretty awesome to be there, myself included, but what if they just wanted to change one thing….then what?

How would you ever choose what one thing you wanted to change in history?  Everyone’s perspective is different, because everyone has been affected by the outcome of events in a different way…The impact of a single event may mean nothing to someone from NYC in the United States, but might be everything to a whole village in China…

We never know how the events of history have formed because we weren’t there…but what if we could go back and see for ourselves how things came about?  Would we want to change them?

Unforeseen history in the making…every day we go through and every person that we meet goes into our personal history book.  Never knowing what’s coming can’t look back until it’s printed on the pages.  Sometimes I wonder how my story will end up.

Watching people out in crowded spaces sometimes I wonder what their story is….some people look creepy some people look happy some people look distant and sad….I wonder where they have been and how their stories will end.

Everything that we experience helps to form the life that we will end up with, the life that will be looked at probably only upon our death, maybe not even then….  I think that very few people have their lives examined, do people care about the history that the average person has put into the world?  What if the average Joe down the street is the one who started the ripples that ended with something great happening, and someone else getting the credit?

What if people are linked to your pages that you don’t even realize because they are in a different volume, a new series but still a spin off and are connected to your pages?

The book of life is an ongoing history account of all of the people in the world…all of the events and situations that they encountered, how the first event has spiraled, penetrating into lives that were not even an afterthought or the beginnings of a thought when the even occurred, into lives that the person was not even aware existed.  Degrees of separation in life are only important when you need to prove something….what about all of the events and history of the every day life that is never questioned or examined…what if someone were to look at what was really written in the every day history book?

I went to get the mail today and realized I hadn’t gotten it in almost a week when I saw everything crammed into the little box.  Who knew so much stuff could fit in there???  Tons of envelopes, mostly junk mail and several packages from my last splurge on ebay.  I get all of the mail back to my apartment and begin the process of sorting and opening and shredding the junk for the things that need attention.  To my delight after several invitations to switch insurance companies, not one but two reimbursement checks I had completely forgotten were suppose to be coming were in the mail.  I was pretty happy thinking that I made money by simply checking the mail.  I was getting ready to text my friend just that, that I made money by checking the mail….when I decided to open the rest first.  And there it was, a crazy, random happenstance, a few more pieces of junk mail and then an unexpected doctor’s bill that is about ten dollars more than the amount of the checks I received today……I had to laugh after my post yesterday “Knocked Down”.  It was only fitting that I had a few minutes of joy and then….back to square one.  Life is a constant turn of events, you never know what is beyond the next hill or bend in the road.  You simply have to keep moving.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad to have the money to pay the bill with; but it would have been nice to buy something fun with the money instead

Something’s gotta give…eventually, maybe we’ll see the perfect moment to dive out of this circle.  But for now, I’m pretty sure I have resigned myself to the fact that it’s just the way that life is….You gotta have some bad with the good.  A trap that you can’t spin your way out of…..it’s just life.