It’s strange how some things just all of the sudden fall into place. All of the worry and anxiety that comes with the natural problems that come your way in life…and then all of the sudden they are solved, things just come up and pop into place right in front of you…impossible to miss. The problem being that sometimes it’s hard to convince yourself to relax and accept that things have worked out…it’s like you’re waiting for something else to go wrong instead of enjoying the moment of everything being caught up and in place.
It’s hard to let go of the feelings that have become a regular part of the routine…almost like you don’t know how to feel if it’s not one of those feelings of frustration, despair, anxiety, or resentment. Somethings can make you feel loved and wonderful, but then you still feel like you should be taking care of the problems that you have been dealing with so long…it’s hard to even know what do with the free time you have found thrown into your lap. You have to keep telling yourself that everything has worked out and there isn’t anything you need to be worried about any more. …. leaves you in an odd place.
At what point do you cross from a simple coincidence to …that can’t possibly be some random act that coincided? When does it become too much to just accept as coincidence, no greater force, no god, no push of fate? How long can you believe that things just happen and that there isn’t a greater force, that there is nothing in control, things just roll on?
I’m not talking about religion, but something greater than humans…something more powerful, or with a wider range of power at least….
Why is it that you can go months or sometimes years without speaking to someone and then call them when they need you the most just because you felt like calling them? How is it that it seems like the perfect line of impossible events lined up in such a way that something happened with a million to one odds against it….
Granted maybe some things just simply happen…no mater plan behind them, no plot of fate…just simply the way the dice fall with life as the play board.
Do we question why or simply accept? Does it matter if there is a controlling force or if it’s coincidence? Or does it simply matter that it did in fact happen and needs to be dealt with from now on?
How do you decide what matters in life and what should simply pass on by?