Mirrored images of fairies and princesses fade away with the laughter and smiles

Disappearing and growing into reality

Escape of books and imagination becoming a distant memory

As you watch the little girl rise into womanhood through the trials of life

Facts of existence becoming authentic as the woman develops within

Seeing the new reflection of the eyes staring back at you, you realize

New feelings and emotions suppressing the old

Now and forever having to show the validity of the adult

No longer free to spin, dance, and play

No longer free to relax into a tea party or sing without shame

Having to let go of the carefree existence you once knew as reality

Can’t continue to converse with the good friends that dolls and teddy bears become

Sitting alone on the shelf as you wallpaper and paint over the kittens and bows

Not only the walls of the room changing but the inside of the girl

Looking into a world no longer full of innocence, no longer a peaceful sight

Only able to appreciate the occasional break in the clouds

To see the sun and remember the days that the princess was alive and well

When magical fairies were able to roam around the yard as you put on a show of delight for all of those around

Delight in the smile and laughing eyes of the innocent and true joy

The small moments of passion and love that take you back to a feeling of bliss unhindered by life’s existence

Joy, Lust, Passion, Doubt, Guilt, Anger:  All different emotions that get very different reactions from people at different times and towards different things.  I have to wonder how many of these things can motivate a person, are there more than one thing at a time that motivates a person, maybe pride and the well being of their family, or guilt as well as wanting to do the right thing….How many different motivating factors get strung into the background of every decision that we make as a person?

I know there are some people that act on a whim…all of the time, or so it seems, but even they are motivated by something, I don’t think that the decisions come all by themselves.  There are other people who sit for hours and make plans and lists.  Some people let other people make their decisions for them, not want the responsibility of a risky plan or one that back fires.

I think that we all have different things to consider in our lives, children, parents, siblings, spouses, lovers, friends, work, money, all sorts of different things that contribute into our plans for the future, or for decisions that take effect immediately.

Casting plans aside, insisting on instant attention

Sometimes a person, accident, storm, anything

Sometimes they are positive things that we want to spare the time for

Sometimes Not

A great chance at something wonderful

Butterflies, Rainbows and Waterfalls

All coming at you in an instant

Beauty and Fear, New things and Old

All unforeseen in the future of your life

Pressing on the chest so that it is hard to breathe

Your dreams and reality collide together in overwhelming passion

Coming together for a few moments of peace found in the intimacy

The love and desire filling any gaps in the heart

Soft and warm, held in the adoring arms of the one you are connected to

Feeling free and fluttering off in thought and dreams

Happiness and Joy filling your eyes as you can’t prevent the smile shinning through

Do you go on trusting people and risking being hurt, and betrayed or keep everything tight up inside and never let anyone in?

What happens when you are no longer sure what friendship means?  Or relationship?  What happens when you don’t know how you should interact with people because you just don’t know what could happen in the future.  I’m sure some people would argue that you need to treasure the time that you have and feel blessed that you had certain people in your life at all…but then what happens when that is suddenly taken from you, no warning, no goodbye, just gone….leaving the empty footsteps in the wake, just waiting to disappear with the wind.  It’s easy to say that  you just want to treasure the time that you have, until that time is gone, and then you have to realize that things are not always that simple.  I think, more times than not, people find themselves wanting that friendship, or that relationship back, if for nothing else, so they can feel that trust they thought they shared with the person again.  Even most friendships have an emotional connection that comes tumbling down when the people separate.

More than likely, the emptiness will fill again if you let it, but of course that leaves the opportunity open for history to repeat itself once again.  So you have to make the decision, do you allow yourself the chance to get hurt and accept new friends into your life, or do you hold back and keep to yourself to never feel the betrayal of a friend shutting you out?

It’s amazing how people choose to interact with each other, or at least with certain people.  As if the people they encounter don’t feel put off at all by the treatment.  Have they never felt hurt or anger or frustration with someone for similar treatment?  Are they not able to feel these things because they are so centered around themselves that it doesn’t even occur to them to feel anything because they don’t notice how others treat them? 

I have to wonder if people realize how they appear when other people witness their treatment of the people around them.  Personally when I see someone who just uses another person, it makes me not want to trust them, or even help them out in any way.  It kind of makes me just want to let them flounder because they are obviously use to people giving them exactly what they want, when they want it; as if they are entitled to something that the rest of us can only dream of.

It’s always so wonderful when an unexpected show of love shows up and is appreciated.  It’s so nice when you can see the emotion radiating from the eyes of the one you love as they look at you in the passion of the moment.  It fills your whole body with the warmth of love.

There is always the other views of love, the view of the cynic, a father, a brother, a sister, a mother, a grandparent, a friend….I think that everyone has their own version of love, and everyone experiences it differently, which is what makes it such a wonderful thing when you can find it and feel the real thing

Patience and Time…two very interesting concepts.  I am beginning to think that at times people can be very selfish with both.  If you’re not patient with the people you love and care about then you are being selfish and if you expect everything right away and not allow for time to take care of itself you’re being selfish.  I have come to the realization today that patience really is a virtue and the best things come in their own time and we just have to be patient and wait for the happenings in life to work themselves out.  I like this quote, life really is about timing…and you need to know when the right time to make a move and when is the right time to sit back and listen…sometimes great things happen when you just see where life is willing to take you all on its own.

More on time….

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn’t happen at once.” Albert Einstein

I really like this quote because I think it’s true.  I don’t believe time actually exists…I think it is something that we have made up in order to make everything make sense, give some type of order to the events of life…what if everything does happen at once but we have trained ourselves to think linear when it really isn’t?  What if we can’t see what happens right in front of us simply because we don’t think it’s time for that particular thing to happen?

Leave you wondering what will happen next, all the possibilities race through your mind before you have time to latch onto one of those threads

A sense of trust and wonder overwhelm all other senses as you make your way through the moment

Fumbling through, absorbing everything into the whole body

Feelings and emotions flowing through the passion of love and pure elation

The warmth of the other half of your soul found in the body next to yours

Evidence of the mutual passionate bliss in their eyes, mind, body, and heart

Glowing radiation of the new experience shared and enjoyed

A memory that cannot be erased or forgotten

Something to replay in the recesses of the mind

Something to give power and strength as you are reminded of the love and passion

Reality blurred into the wondrous fabrication of peaceful passion

Sometimes surprises are not so good, but the ones that come up naturally from a loved one seem to really improve on any situation.  The smallest of sweet gestures can make you really take a deep breath and just enjoy an evening, or bring a smile to your lips every time you think about it.

Sometimes just know you are loved is enough, and other times it’s the little surprises that just remind you that life can be good and there is such a thing as happiness…and most importantly, that happiness is not  out of your reach and it is not too good for you…