Shining Thru

The crisp cool air of the autumn changes meets you as you open the door

Seeing the bright vibrant colors rustle in the branches up above brings a peacefulness

A break from the heat and suffocating humidity, it’s like the first fresh air you’ve had in months

The fall season brings a peace to your mind as you take your time walking outside

Enjoying the change that is all around you in nature

Feeling the change through your whole body, knowing that soon it will be winter

But this moment is perfect, relaxing, and beautiful

The crashing waves, beat the rhythm you hear in your head

Circling around your thoughts one more time

Listening to the gentle crash upon the beach

The birds sore above the swirling madness

Jealous of their freedom I admire them from below

Listening again to the sound of the water I wait

Sitting and waiting, listening and admiring

I see a fish jump in the water as a dolphin chases it into the air

Trapped, fear and successful triumph all in one single snap shot

Watching nature swirl around as the waves continue to crash

Sometimes gently upon the sand

Sometimes hard against the rocks

Wondering what kind of crashing emotion will be mine.

I think it’s strange how one weird thing lands on top of another and another.  It seems that whenever something out of the ordinary happens, it is only the beginning and things just get stranger and stranger until you wish you could just step back and look at the last few days or weeks as a movie to see if you made it all up.  Was it a dream?  Are you over exaggerating the events in your mind or imagining that all of these things happened all within such a short period of time?  When you hear about this type of situation happening to someone else, you sometimes think that they must be exaggerating, just a little bit in all of the confusion or stress of the events….but then you find yourself in the same situation, just thinking:  no one will believe this…no one.  You sit there and ponder how all of the events could take place, how people you haven’t seen or spoken to in months or even years all appear at the same time, at the same time as any number of other things occur:  people acting odd compared to their normal behavior and/or humor, events taking unexpected turns for the good or the bad, never the less all unexpected things.

Why do things tend to find you all at once, they say things come in threes but it seems to me that most of the time it’s more than that.

The clock ticks, the days go by

Weeks later you are still there

In the office, on the corner bus stop

Watches tick, the alarm goes off

A new day approaches that blurs with the old

Interruptions every day keep it from moving forward

Life its self seems paused, frozen, or in slow motion

In the run around of society and daily duties

The days go by and night soon appears

But you don’t know where the time went

Still waiting you pause again and remember you were going somewhere

Waiting for something, Having a thought before it was interrupted by the wait.

The darkness and the storm sneak in, closer and closer, to capture you where you can’t lay in peace, ever haunted by the thoughts and emotions floating aimlessly in the mind ready to strike just as you feel a peaceful moment approaching.  The emotions swirling into a tornado of thundering loudness within the mind, the lightning strikes the nerves that are attached to the feelings they are pulling on, blowing in, consuming….A devouring presence that refuses to be ignored as you sit and squirm and spin, trying to release yourself from the icy steal hold.  The candle flame flickers as your only light tries to stay alive under the covers of the storm, the clouds chilling your bones.  As you don’t want to see but look anyway, curiosity overcoming your good judgment you see the nightmare come alive.

Experience is suppose to be the harsh teacher of life.  Something that makes you grow and move forward, but isn’t it possible just to experience things because you can, and maybe to have a little fun?  There are some things that we encounter or bring to ourselves in life that are life changing moments, but some experiences are just fun to be able to remember later, or at least enjoy in the moment, even if you never look back at that moment.  Knowing that something can make you smile and feel some happiness, I think should be reason enough to go ahead with it.  Many people disagree, there are people out there that would like a reason for everything and not want to do anything without a “good” reason…apparently, just wanting to is not a good enough reason for these people to simply go out and enjoy themselves.

Have you ever seen those people that seem to be incapable of simply having a good time, who look stressed and uptight even when they are supposedly “relaxing”.  These people make me sad for them, I feel like making a list in the morning must be the highlight of their day, next to crossing things off of that list and feeling as though they accomplished something.   I’m not saying that we shouldn’t all do productive things, but I am saying that there is some truth to needing a good balance between work and play.  Sometimes the greatest growing experience of all can be when you least expect it.  Sometimes change happens all by itself, and you never see it coming.  Sometimes we need to recognize that we have something right in front of us to enjoy right now, instead of wondering how we can enjoy something in the future.

The Butterfly floats to and fro

Fluttering from here to there

Happily enjoying the solitude of the moment

Entering the new life alone and flying on alone

Enjoy the sunshine but looking for more

Looking for something to share with another

The brightly colored insect flutters along the short journey given

The world an overwhelming undertaking as it is released from its restraints

But still it flies on, happy and carefree, enjoying all along the way

Always believing that whatever is missing will be found in this vast world

Leaving others behind and envious of its faith in true happiness that will be found

Found in another when the moment is right and they are both free of restraints

Moving forwards together from the cocoon and into the world to find the rest of life together

Never Knowing what is coming

Never Knowing where you’re going

Will it be a storm or rainbow that arises next?

Over the hill a startling shock or pleasant surprise

Life is full of things that we cannot possibly know of

Life, Love, Adventure, Heartache, Pain, and Freedom

All come with complications of this world

and the people in it.

The people that strive on emotional health

Even when that health comes from the suffering of others

Some people try so hard to stay in control, never accepting that there are things that we cannot possible dream of knowing.  I’m not sure why some people are so determined to know everything, have a list and a label for everything.  A place for everything, and everything in it’s place….and yet this is exactly what causes them so much pain and confusion when something goes wrong or unexpected.  The complications of this life have to be taken, chalked up to experience and allow the people to keep on movin.  No need to stop and dwell, what’s done is done, and can never be undone.  The experiences of this life, weigh heavily on our emotions and feelings, not to mention, if we allow, can over take our thoughts throughout the other every day events that we still have to make it through, no matter what has happened.  We can’t know what curve balls are going to be thrown at us, but we can deal with it and move on.  It’s amazing how these things can happen to us in both positive and negative ways.  If something bad can happen it can over take our thoughts and feelings, however, I think we sometimes forget that just as easily we can be consumed by passion and love and good surprises as well.

Lost and confused in the whirling winds of the crowd

Lost in thoughts and conversation with all of those around

Swirling through the madness of the confusion of others

Surrounded by the every day happenings that come your way

Never knowing what will be done or said

Moving along trying to make sense of it all

Blind to what emotions may be in play, you’re left to guess

False Assumptions that lead to false conclusions

Stumbling through the day, transferring from one thing to the next

Trying to understand what will come next when there is no way of telling

No way of seeing the pattern through the mist, never knowing what’s approaching

Just keep looking and moving through the confusion of people and life

Swimming through an ocean of blurred images

Lost in a peaceful world of new exploration

Bright colors and softened images float by

Only seeing the surface reflection of the outside chaos

Staying in the surrounding warmth

Something so vast can feel so comforting as it encloses you

Welcoming you into the new world

Not being rushed or judged, simply accepted

The amazing feeling of unhindered relaxation

Continued exploration with no hurry to resurface

You stay in a world that welcomes you as you are