Shining Thru

It’s so strange how tension and stress seems to build up inside of people until they can’t take it any more…it’s also strange how it seems to happen to many people associated with each other at the same time….you can go to work one day and just find out that everyone lost it the day before, including yourself, everyone just sick and tired of everything….

I think it’s good that you hear other people talk about their problems sometimes, sometimes it puts you in check, sometimes it just gives both people someone to talk to.  I think it’s strange how so many people that meet each other in life can be stressed out and all of them have a different thing to be stressed about.  So many things to worry about in this life, and yet there always seems to be other people that worry about completely different things….I don’t think that a lot of the issues are different than each other as far as their importance, they’re just different in their topic.

I think it’s strange what keeps people from snapping, the things that hold them back, help them get through it all, make them relax and feel better.  For some people comfort comes from another person, sometimes a CD, sometimes a movie, sometimes a book, sometimes video games….some people have to let out their stress through exercise or hitting something, other people have to cry it out, while others scream and yet, and still others get dead silent.  What gets a person to the point that they snap and calming themselves down their normal way is not an option???

Good Timing, Bad Timing, the difference can be only moments away from each other, could be one comment less or one comment more, just a word, just a gesture…what kind of things need to be taken into consideration when thinking about what makes good or bad timing?  Why do things need to be timed out at all?  Why do we always try to find the perfect moment to bring up a topic in conversation, or make an advancing move (in a relationship, in the work place, anywhere really).  It seems like everywhere we go is based on timing things out “right”.  And yet, we don’t seem to know what criteria we are being judged on when it comes to timing.

Everyone has their own ideas of what is a good time or bad time, even when it comes to the same experience by two different people at the same time.  I guess it’s one of those things in life that we may never be able to put a definition to because it is different for each individual person.  Come to think of it, I suppose there are a lot of things like that in life….

Embarrassment is a strange emotion.  It comes when you least expect it and can come in so many forms, in so many places, and from so many different people.  The other thing about embarrassment is that it can last for all sorts of different time spans.  Some people are able to let go of embarrassment rather quickly, while others can hold on to it, and begrudge anyone who saw them get embarrassed.  Some people can even embrace the feeling and turn it into a positive experience because they like all of the attention, while others spend all of their time hiding in the shadows, dodging all of the attention from everyone or at least the people who are not close to them.

It’s amazing how certain people can make you always feel safe and never make fun of you or embarrass you.  It has always interested me to know how some people you can just connect with right away and never look back, never regret that relationship, and never feel betrayed.  I think that we should feel lucky to know people that make us feel safe and secure, people who appreciate us for who we are and don’t hold our little malfunctions, or quirks against us.  These people we should always hold close to our hearts and never let get too far away.

Embarrassment, I think is one feeling that can really tell you a lot about your relationship with the people that you are around.  Some people can make you feel better about it, brush it off, laugh it off, and some people will hold it against you and point it out to everyone who comes your way.

It’s interesting how things can take over the world, slowly and without notice….things catch on and spread through a culture until they reach the outskirts of another.  How one thing said in a movie, or in one classroom can lead to it being said generations later in another country…and the people probably don’t even know where it originated.  They simply know what word or phrase or symbol has come to mean to them over the years.  Things can infest the human population, leaking out like a disease, without anyone taking notice. 

I think it’s interesting to watch things evolve from one thing to the next.  To watch something take on a whole new persona with each new passing group that experiences it.  One word can transform and then you ask someone about it and their response is always interesting.  Some people will tell you that they remember when the phrase was made popular and that it didn’t mean the same thing then that it does now.  And others will tell you that they don’t know where the phrase come from…and yet it keeps getting repeated and taken from generation to generation without much explanation, if any. 

These unexplained phenomenons in culture slowly but surely spread their way across the country and then across the world.

There seems to be a thin line when trying to balance life out and experience it to the fullest…if you’re not involved in enough activities, groups, people, etc, then you feel like you never do anything but stay home….on the flip side when you start working multiple jobs, get involved with different clubs and groups, and start hanging out with different people it is easy to become overwhelmed to the point of not feeling like you ever have time for yourself….the problem being that by the time you get overwhelmed you are generally already committed, or have justified everything in your head to the point that you don’t want to back out of anything or give up anything…so then what do you do?  Continue to take away hours of sleep, just to get in some time to quiet your mind?  But if you use that as your answer, you start to suffer during the day….your patience grows thin, you get sick of things that are happening around you every day, you start not to enjoy being around the same people because you just want to be alone sometimes…What’s really sad is when you spend all of your time with people, and most of them are not the few that you really want to see….So now, you have a packed schedule, you’re seeing people that you don’t have patience for, and missing the people that you love.

I think that balancing out your life takes real talent…sometimes it’s a lot harder than you think, especially because every time you think you are walking along the tightrope without any problems, a strong breeze comes through and something throws you back off balance.  Sometimes you feel like you are trudging along, but as much as you try to move forward, sometimes you just sink deeper into the mud.

Other times things seem to go really well.  You do all of the things that you want to do, and see all of the people that you want to see….however, it’s easy to get distracted from the things that you need to do at that point.  I wish I could find that perfect balance between the two.

Do you ever feel like you are screaming and nobody is listening?  No matter what you say you feel like you might as well take up being a mime for the circus, or just on the side of the street.  Yelling and Yelling but nothing comes out.  You want to shake the people around you and tell them to just listen….why can’t they just listen?

I have to wonder if I ever frustrate people in the same way.  I don’t know if there are mutual feelings from the people that frustrate me so much.  Sometimes you feel like you don’t even speak the same language as other people, the way things are twisted around or simply ignored….

I think that a lot of issues could be solved if people listened to each other, really listen to each other.  I think so many people just kind of go with the flow of things instead of paying attention to the details.  Some people are trying so hard to fight their way through each day, each minute, that things get tough for them to pay attention to, they’re simply stretched too thin.

“All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. ”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

I have to say that some people would disagree with Emerson.  Some people get really annoyed and even angry when you try to go beyond the normal happenings of the day, when you try to throw something new into the routine.  Some people prefer to know exactly what will happen every day no matter what…while others never want the same routine.  I think that most people have parts of their life in a set routine, either what they do at work, or how they get up int he morning, or what they do when they get home….some of these routines are hard to break, while others you can bounce all around and still get things done.

However, there are some people who live for adventure.  Some people choose jobs like police officers, hiking guides, different jobs that don’t have set routines and they are able to see and do different things with different people each day.

I have to wonder how many people are the adventurous type and how many are the type that like routines to the point where they have an off day all day whenever something does not fall the way it has int he days before it.  I’m willing to bet there are more people that lie somewhere in between, I know there are extremes, but I think most people would agree that trying some new things is a good thing and some routine is also nice at times.

Looking in it’s easy to see the mistakes and criticize

It’s easy to look on and view the issues of others as unnecessary conflicts

The look in the window always seems simpler than it really is.

There isn’t any sound you only see the movements in one room, instead of all of the goings on in the house

It seems like people are quick to tell someone how they could have avoided a situation or that what they are doing is wrong….isn’t it strange that most of those same people don’t have any type of real advice on how to improve the situation, they are good at criticizing but not at problem solving….

I think it’s rather strange that people who make plenty of mistakes themselves never seem to admit to them, they only look for someone else to blame, someone that they can pin the whole thing on and keep things moving for themselves.

I hate that people will look at a person and expose their weakness or criticize a situation that they do not understand and usually are not fully aware of.

People who want to examine the life of another need to look into the mirror.

It is so nice to feel like spring is on its way.  I don’t know what it is about this time of the year but the weather is nice, you can actually get sunshine in your windows, it’s daylight longer during the day.  This season of birth and change is a wonderful time of the year for me.  I think that there is something about it that makes me feel like it’s time to get some things done as well.  Spring gives me hope that things are going to come together after all.

It seems like even though we think of spring as a season for animals to be born and the weather to get nicer and the flowers to bloom; it seems like people also go through something at spring time.  I’ve noticed more people smiling, I’ve noticed more babies being born, it just seems different.  I don’t know if it’s the nice weather or what it is, but I do enjoy seeing the changes all over.

Funny how certain things can raise our alert levels, there are some obvious things such as a crime taking place while you’re int he same area or seeing the police chase a car down the street….and then there are the situations that are not so obvious, but are easy to figure out because they are the situations that occur around you, maybe even somehow involve you, but you still have no idea what’s really going on….something like the cops being in your neighborhood on every street, looking in cars, searching people, but nobody telling anybody what’s going on or why they need to be doing these things. I think that they probably do have a reason for all of these different things; however, it’s hard for a person to understand that when nobody will tell them what is going on or what the point of all of it?  What is the end goal?  Not knowing those things can drive a person crazy.  Not knowing who or what is going around in your neighborhood can make you look over your shoulder, not in a paranoid kind of way, but just trying to be safe and aware of everything that is around yourself.  I think that you almost have to be on alert.  I think that some people don’t know how to get off of being on alert and are there all of the time.  I’m not sure this is the healthiest way to do things, but who am I to judge that.  Sometimes just plain being tired can put you at a higher alert level, or do the exact opposite and make you not care about anything but sleep…I guess it just depends on the person.

What’s interesting is when you figure out that you were really on alert for no good reason and were really over reacting…I suppose it’s better that than to be caught off guard by something horrible, but still…it’s not a really enjoyable way to live in my opinion.  Always on your guard, always alert for the fall….