Shining Thru

The thrill of a new experience, the excitement of the build up and anticipation

Leave you wondering what will happen next, all the possibilities race through your mind before you have time to latch onto one of those threads

A sense of trust and wonder overwhelm all other senses as you make your way through the moment

Fumbling through, absorbing everything into the whole body

Feelings and emotions flowing through the passion of love and pure elation

The warmth of the other half of your soul found in the body next to yours

Evidence of the mutual passionate bliss in their eyes, mind, body, and heart

Glowing radiation of the new experience shared and enjoyed

A memory that cannot be erased or forgotten

Something to replay in the recesses of the mind

Something to give power and strength as you are reminded of the love and passion

Reality blurred into the wondrous fabrication of peaceful passion

Self Perception and insecurities can play a huge role in how you see the world.  It’s always surprising that a lot of the problems that people have with the world are really based around insecurities that they have about themselves, the things that keep them from being self confident in how they look, act, or simply are….

Many people complain about other people or the way the media portrays people because they are insecure with that exact opposite about themselves…I never realized it before I had a conversation with a friend who pointed it out, but they were right…you very rarely hear a confident person complaining about other people, or the society that we live in…they just make it work because they are confident in who they are and don’t care what anybody else has to say or even think about it.

And in truth, it shouldn’t matter what anyone else has to say about you,  because honestly, you are none of their business.  Granted, everyone has a different life experience and therefore see things differently…the things that annoy me, or irritate me, may be the things that you enjoy and are glad to see in our world….a lot of it is based on our background, but a lot of it is also based on who we are as a person.  If we are confident in who we are and what we do, then we shouldn’t have anything to worry about.  I realize that sometimes that is easier said than done, but it should be the case.

I think it’s funny that as I stop and think about all of this, it is the people who are constantly saying how they don’t care what other people think, and make it a point that everyone knows that they don’t care, who seem to have the most insecurities.  The ones who are promoting others not to do something because it is what society pushes for, are the same ones who try to talk themselves up or others down while condemning all society.  Maybe it’s time for those people to take a look and do a little self examining before they go off about what’s wrong with this group of people or that group, or society in general…..

I don’t think it’s a bad thing for any of us to take another look and at least be knowledgeable about the fact that our self perceptions greatly affect our perceptions of society and the world that we live in.

What is normal?  What seems normal and obvious to you may be the exact opposite to the person sitting next to you.  You never know what their experiences have been and you don’t know that your perception is shared by those that share the room with you now.  We have all come from different backgrounds, even if you grew up in the same neighborhood, maybe even as next door neighbors, that might mean that you have a better general, mutual agreement of the term “normal” but in reality, normal doesn’t exist.

Normal is some type of thing that we have fooled our society into believing.  Normal is a fake term that is used when people expect the other people around them to understand what is going on inside of their head.  The truth is that nobody can really be inside your head, and it shouldn’t be assumed that other people know your thoughts as if they are being broadcast on the wall behind you at all times…like the people you are talking to have cue cards.

I think that a lot of misunderstandings could be avoided if people were more open to the fact that not everyone has the same background, the same beliefs or the same views on things…and that is ok.  So many people get so defensive like their livelihood is being challenged simply because someone else has a different thought about something.  So instead of opening their mind up to a new experiences, they lock it down and dig in their heels to argue, when no argument is necessary.

“Normal”….that is something that doesn’t exist and probably never will.  What is normal is what the media tells the younger generations to believe is normal…but then what media are we talking about?  What stations are people watching?  What magazines are they reading?  What radio stations are they listening to?  All kinds of things define “normal” for our society, but in reality it is all a matter of perception.

It’s amazing how you get so caught up in certain things that you don’t know where the time goes…pieces of your life…spaces of time that just seem to disappear, sometimes when you’re caught up in the stress of things, sometimes it’s because you’re relaxing in the moment or just hanging out with the people that you care about…having fun.  Sometimes you can remember every little detail, other times you sit there and have to wonder what you did for that many hours…because it seems like only a few minutes went by.

I think it’s kind of crazy how we have let ourselves get so wrapped up in things that we spend most of our life being worried about what comes next on the schedule…where does the plan go from here?  I think that a lot more people would be happier if they just let things go as they will….

Now, I understand that you have to plan certain things out, or live in a constant state of chaos, but sometimes, the schedule should be the last thing that you are thinking about.  Sometimes living in the moment is all that matters, because those moments will be the details that you remember, and you will regret passing them by just to keep up with some imaginary time table that you made up one day over a cup of coffee…

Vacation is a wonderful thing, able to relax and enjoy the time you have and the days of leisure…but all good things come to an end, and sometimes that end is brought about by too much of a good thing.  Sometimes the people that you spend the time with and look forward to…start to get a little bit annoying, as I’m sure you do to them.  Mannerism become apparent and repetitive,  and sooner or later, too much of a good thing is no longer a good thing.

Vacation can be a good thing and can be a nice relaxing trip, but sooner or later reality kicks in and you have to back to work and to the every day life.  Sometimes going back is a welcomed change, or some parts are and some parts aren’t.  The welcomed parts can be the safety of a routine or the people that you miss seeing.  I don’t know many people that enjoy returning to work.  Sometimes at the end of a group trip, what you really want is a day or two to catch your breath.  Sometimes a vacation is more stressful than the every day life, but there are highlights, and good times, and good memories.  Just don’t let them build up past their welcome.

It’s interesting how things can take over the world, slowly and without notice….things catch on and spread through a culture until they reach the outskirts of another.  How one thing said in a movie, or in one classroom can lead to it being said generations later in another country…and the people probably don’t even know where it originated.  They simply know what word or phrase or symbol has come to mean to them over the years.  Things can infest the human population, leaking out like a disease, without anyone taking notice. 

I think it’s interesting to watch things evolve from one thing to the next.  To watch something take on a whole new persona with each new passing group that experiences it.  One word can transform and then you ask someone about it and their response is always interesting.  Some people will tell you that they remember when the phrase was made popular and that it didn’t mean the same thing then that it does now.  And others will tell you that they don’t know where the phrase come from…and yet it keeps getting repeated and taken from generation to generation without much explanation, if any. 

These unexplained phenomenons in culture slowly but surely spread their way across the country and then across the world.

Persistence in all things could be a good thing or could be a bad thing, I guess it depends on a person’s motivation and character.  If a person is persistent and has all good intentions their persistence could still come back to bite them in the behind, where as another person who is only persistent in running up the social ladder or getting the upper hand on a situation or even another person can sometimes be very successful.

I think that things like these are their to remind us that life isn’t fair.  Someone who is only trying to do good for another group or person can sometimes never succeed, or not without running through a huge obstacle course that seems to be directly put in their way with the purpose of making life hard for them….And yet someone else can have the most selfish motivations of all and come out on top.

Sometimes you really have to wonder if being persistent is even worth it…you keep climbing and climbing and yet the top of the mountain still seems out of reach.  All you want to do is to see the view from the top and be able to recognize that the feeling of being on top is worth the hike up and the skinned knees from the trips and falls.

It’s impossible to know what will be worth it until you see the outcome.  In the mean time I guess you just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other and hope that you come out on the top, and not squished beneath another’s boot.

It’s amazing what triggers emotions….it can seem like the strangest times and for things that seem sooo disconnected from what you are currently experiencing you start to question your level of logic.  It’s actually a nice safety check in place to know that the emotions seem so off base that you have to sit there and at least try to logic them out….the trigger is soon dismissed as some type of fluke in the system.

Sometimes a trigger can happen at the perfect moment of passion and thrill, but on the flip side, the smallest thing can cause the biggest distraction when it triggers a slew of memories and emotions.

Have you ever felt a surge of jealousy or some other emotion that simply overcomes your whole mind and energy while it lasts.  You seem to only have two options when something like that happens, either wait for it to pass, act on it, or logic it out.  The third option is the hardest of the three in my opinion.  It means you have to step back for a moment and realize that your emotions can lie and that they can be completely sporadic, irrelevant, and disconnected from the reality surrounding you.

Do you ever find yourself in a situation that forces you into realizations that you have been avoiding for awhile?  Denial can be tricky…sometimes it’s a conscious effort to put yourself in denial and not look at all of the facts, and sometimes you don’t even know that you’re there.  A person can fool themselves into thinking that everything is fine as the world crumbles around them.  The mind is a very powerful instrument.  We can make ourselves believe whatever we want and ignore whatever we want.  The imagination can sometimes run away with us though…

Sometimes people let their minds wander into the impossibilities of this world.  Sometimes they just try to create their won perfect world.  A world made of day dreams and imaginary situations that go just as they’ve planned…

Where as the world often times brings ups back to reality with a powerful slap.  Crashing down around us as our bubble of denial is interrupted.  Disturbed, the nerve of the world to interfere with something that someone took all the time to dream up or the facts that have been pushed to the far corners of the mind, to be left there and ignored….

Ignored until the world points them back out, over and over again, until you can no longer ignore them…or at least not without going crazy.  I think that a person can ignore whatever they want, but it’s only a matter of time before their mind starts to slip away from them, before they can’t grasp any part of reality because they’ve pushed it too far way, creating their own handle on things.  Or they can choose to go the other way and embrace reality and let their dreams fall away…crashing down to the ground and below.  Leaving them afraid to hope or dream for anything else, stuck with only the cold reality of this world we live in.

Sleepiness washing over you like a tidal wave of hopes and dreams
A crashing blow that brings you down
Or a gentle rocking that can put you out
Weariness that is inside your soul as you move forward
Avoiding sleep, without a choice
Pressing on you hear the voice
Calling to you with a sweet lullaby
Nodding your head you stand up to make the effort
Making a move so you don’t stop in your tracks
Your head steadily falls
Eyelids closing gently but forcefully
You can’t go on and fight the dream
You can only submit to the power of nature
The human body and its design
Come crashing down into your reality
Knowing you need to move and can’t
Knowing something must be done
Sleep is the only option now