Shining Thru

It’s strange how some things just all of the sudden fall into place.  All of the worry and anxiety that comes with the natural problems that come your way in life…and then all of the sudden they are solved, things just come up and pop into place right in front of you…impossible to miss.  The problem being that sometimes it’s hard to convince yourself to relax and accept that things have worked out…it’s like you’re waiting for something else to go wrong instead of enjoying the moment of everything being caught up and in place.

It’s hard to let go of the feelings that have become a regular part of the routine…almost like you don’t know how to feel if it’s not one of those feelings of frustration, despair, anxiety, or resentment.  Somethings can make you feel loved and wonderful, but then you still feel like you should be taking care of the problems that you have been dealing with so long…it’s hard to even know what do with the free time you have found thrown into your lap.  You have to keep telling yourself that everything has worked out and there isn’t anything you need to be worried about any more. …. leaves you in an odd place.

Vacation is a wonderful thing, able to relax and enjoy the time you have and the days of leisure…but all good things come to an end, and sometimes that end is brought about by too much of a good thing.  Sometimes the people that you spend the time with and look forward to…start to get a little bit annoying, as I’m sure you do to them.  Mannerism become apparent and repetitive,  and sooner or later, too much of a good thing is no longer a good thing.

Vacation can be a good thing and can be a nice relaxing trip, but sooner or later reality kicks in and you have to back to work and to the every day life.  Sometimes going back is a welcomed change, or some parts are and some parts aren’t.  The welcomed parts can be the safety of a routine or the people that you miss seeing.  I don’t know many people that enjoy returning to work.  Sometimes at the end of a group trip, what you really want is a day or two to catch your breath.  Sometimes a vacation is more stressful than the every day life, but there are highlights, and good times, and good memories.  Just don’t let them build up past their welcome.

Red, Green, Yellow, and Blue; balls and stars glowing from the corner on the Christmas tree.  Presents piled under the low branches, surrounding the beauty of the tree.  Snow on the ground outside the window, reflecting the lights that are on the house and in the yard.  Santas on the corners.  People giving holiday greetings and smiles.  Relaxing nights at home with the family.

Then you turn on the news and see all of the people stuck in the airports or stuck in the snow somewhere.  Especially with the snow storms this year hitting in places that aren’t equipped to deal with the type of snow fall that has been happening.  Trees weighed down with the “dusting” of snow.  The power out because of the trees unable to stand up tot he weather that is coming down on them.  Long lines at the stores for all of the last minute shoppers.

There are good sights and bad when it comes to the holidays.  Some filled with love and others filled with frustration. The holidays bring out so many different sides to people and situations that we don’t see any other time throughout the year.  It’s always interesting to see how things will turn out each year.  Will you be someone looking for another flight to get home to the family or relaxing at home with some of the people that you care about and love?  Every year is different.

Don’t know what to do

Don’t know what to say

Spinning all around at the end of another day

Long hours ticked by slowly, while watching the clock

Now that it’s hear and you give a sigh

Lost in thought and trying to remember to relax

Trying to tune out the list of things to do, knocking at your brain

Trying to ignore the things that have been waiting for you to come through your door

Just wanting to relax, recuperate before resuming the daily tasks of life

The responsibilities that come with being alive and dealing with other people

Responsibilities that come with being a part of society

Wanting it all to go away and to only be with the ones you love and able to relax and enjoy

Able to sit and breathe without worrying about what you aren’t doing at the moment

Able to embrace and enjoy the moment for the love that fills it