Shining Thru

Every day leads to the unknown, even the best laid plans can become a jumbled mess of chaos.  Sometimes there are some moments that lead to ecstatic surprises that fill you with happiness and joy; then there are the moments with the unpleasant surprises that just lead to frustration and confusion…and leave you waiting for the next step to come your way.  Sometimes there is no way of knowing what will come next.  The world is made of wavering paths that we just do our best to keep balance on the wavering and ever changing roads that we find ourselves on.

Always running just to try and get a step ahead, but never knowing where that step will and, you could step on a gold mine, or into a hole of nothingness and then have to climb just to get back up on your feet.

Life is always full of the unknown, some of it good, some of it not so much…but we can’t do much except continue on and hope for the best.  Hope that eventually the bad will even out with the good and things will fall into place.  That plan that you’ve created in your mind for so long, and maybe you’ll be left to be happy, and maybe just a little less struggle will come your way, maybe just a little less of wobbly roads, and maybe something just a little more solid to stand on.

Sometimes we get so caught up in our comfort zones with things that it takes a friend or someone to give a little bit of a push or grab us by the arm and yank us out of the hole we have dug for ourselves.  Sometimes it’s nice to have the familiar things to fall back on, but other times it’s nice to break out and try something new…food, clothes, places, people…..I guess sometimes you have to be in the right mood, but often times it works out for the best, even if you didn’t want to go out of the box originally.

Sometimes we have to convince ourselves that it would be for the best if we went ahead with the plans that we make…even when you start to turn back as they get closer.  Sometimes we have to embrace the new paths that are put in front of us, even when we don’t want to let go of the old dirt road we’ve been following for most of our lives.

Sometimes a little push will make a huge difference….each new person that we meet, or new experience that we have we gain new characteristics ourselves, even if it’s just a change in the way that we think…the whole thought process is a big part of each person.

I went to get the mail today and realized I hadn’t gotten it in almost a week when I saw everything crammed into the little box.  Who knew so much stuff could fit in there???  Tons of envelopes, mostly junk mail and several packages from my last splurge on ebay.  I get all of the mail back to my apartment and begin the process of sorting and opening and shredding the junk for the things that need attention.  To my delight after several invitations to switch insurance companies, not one but two reimbursement checks I had completely forgotten were suppose to be coming were in the mail.  I was pretty happy thinking that I made money by simply checking the mail.  I was getting ready to text my friend just that, that I made money by checking the mail….when I decided to open the rest first.  And there it was, a crazy, random happenstance, a few more pieces of junk mail and then an unexpected doctor’s bill that is about ten dollars more than the amount of the checks I received today……I had to laugh after my post yesterday “Knocked Down”.  It was only fitting that I had a few minutes of joy and then….back to square one.  Life is a constant turn of events, you never know what is beyond the next hill or bend in the road.  You simply have to keep moving.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad to have the money to pay the bill with; but it would have been nice to buy something fun with the money instead

Something’s gotta give…eventually, maybe we’ll see the perfect moment to dive out of this circle.  But for now, I’m pretty sure I have resigned myself to the fact that it’s just the way that life is….You gotta have some bad with the good.  A trap that you can’t spin your way out of…..it’s just life.