Shining Thru

Don’t know what to do

Don’t know what to say

Spinning all around at the end of another day

Long hours ticked by slowly, while watching the clock

Now that it’s hear and you give a sigh

Lost in thought and trying to remember to relax

Trying to tune out the list of things to do, knocking at your brain

Trying to ignore the things that have been waiting for you to come through your door

Just wanting to relax, recuperate before resuming the daily tasks of life

The responsibilities that come with being alive and dealing with other people

Responsibilities that come with being a part of society

Wanting it all to go away and to only be with the ones you love and able to relax and enjoy

Able to sit and breathe without worrying about what you aren’t doing at the moment

Able to embrace and enjoy the moment for the love that fills it

Do you ever feel like you ruin everything…that you are undeserving….that you’re tired of feeling guilty and sorry about everything that happens? 

Sometimes situations present themselves as if they could have been totally different IF only….

If only I hadn’t said that and ruined the mood

If only I hadn’t done that and scared them away

If only I had gotten there five minutes earlier

If only….

If we counted up the if only’s of the world, I think we would be wasting our time, just like we are when we can’t stop thinking about the IF ONLY’s…..It didn’t happen that way, you didn’t do what you think you should have done with hindsight, you didn’t get there at a different time, it happened the way it happened….why is it so hard for us as humans to accept the reality that we have created?  It seems like so much of the population spends their time on regrets instead of moving forward, learning from it and moving on….I wonder who much we could get done if instead of think about the what ifs and regrets of the world, we spent that time being productive and moving forward into the future…I realize that statement is slightly contradictory, but I think that it illustrates the point quite nicely. 

If only we spent less time thinking about and wishing for the IF ONLY’s…..

The way men and women think is completely and totally different the faster everyone realizes that the faster we will all be a lot happier.  Now I know that there are a lot of comedy bits about the difference in the way that men and women think, and everyone laughs, but what makes them so funny is that they’re normally true.  Women need to realize that for the most part, men are straight forward and honest and need the same in return, I don’t know why women expect men to be able to read their minds, or have some huge underlying message, or objective….Women on the other hand, are almost never straight forward about things and they get their hopes up when statements are made with “IF” statements….now if women stopped for about two seconds and thought about the actual meaning of the word IF they would understand that it’s just that, if this happens then we could maybe do this…..but instead women think that plans have just been carved in stone and are really upset when they don’t happen, or when they realize that the man didn’t have the same understanding…

Why is it that a woman expects a man to know that when she says she doesn’t want him to come to her aid, she really means that she is desperate to see him…why not just admit that you want to see him and then everyone will be happy because everyone will know where everyone else stands, what is desired, and how to achieve happiness in the situation….instead women as a whole (not all women)  make it way more difficult then it ever needed to be, but stating what is only obvious to them, not to anyone else, and if you call them out on it, they look at you like you’re the enemy and that you should have understood the first time. 

I really don’t know why men put up with women.  I have my guesses at what a man would tell you as to why they do…Generally when I wonder about something that has to do with a man, I simply ask him…and generally speaking the answer is a lot more straight forward and simpler than I ever could have imagined. 

I do wonder why men and women operate so differently and sometimes on a completely different playing field…

Can being too open minded be a bad thing?  When your thought process is fluid and you’re completely open to at least hearing new thoughts, even if you don’t take them on yourself?  Or is it what we should all strive for?  I think that one of he problems that we may run into if we are too open minded is being too easily influenced by the things that we encounter, media of all sorts for example, news reports, radio, TV, books, magazines…all of these things can influence you to the point where you adopt a pattern of thought or some outlandish idea because it is new and you want to explore it some more.  So you go on, thinking and living in the new idea and maybe even a whole mindset that you have just been introduced to, not realizing that it’s not part of your personality at all…that you might not even agree with it….I suppose that is the beauty in a fluid way of thinking, it might not be safe or fail proof, but it is intelligent and without risk we would never have discovery.  I think that the fear comes in when you lose control of how open minded you want to be….If you allow too much from the media inside the inner-workings of your brain, are you still thinking for yourself or simply absorbing all that you are introduced to , testing it, exploring it, and then discarding what doesn’t fit into your life at the time?

Staring, Waiting, Wondering

Anxious, Nervous, Fidgeting

Minutes tick by

Darkness falls and stars follow

Waiting….

Simply Waiting….

Thinking in circles

Wanting Answers

Not know the questions to ask

What question will unlock the right answers?

Where do you find the key?

Curiosity growing

Worry subsides to logic

Logic spins thinking

Thought goes full circle