Shining Thru

Wandering around,

Pacing Back and Forth,

Lost in thought. 

Forever skipping steps,

Having gaps in logic,

But wanting the end resolved.

Thinking Thinking Thinking,

Sometimes wondering

Sometimes just letting it flow

Random thought taking over.

Chaos growing as you climb deep,

Digging Deeper into the steps of thought.

Climbing in and over

Not knowing if you will slip and fall

Not knowing what lays behind the next

Just continuing forward with everything, yet nothing in sight.

What makes us believe what we hear from certain sources?  Why is it that we take certain information for fact?  Most people hear a word used and never stop to wonder if the word was used correctly or not.  I myself am guilty of this, I hear a new word and remember it in context, never stopping to look up the actual definition of the word.  Habits like these have led to a lot of misinformation in our society.  However, if everyone around you has the same misconceptions, are they still misconceptions?  Or do they become fact at that point?  After all, the purpose of words is to communicate, if communication is achieved, doesn’t that validate the words that were used? 

Although, I think this theory of validity does work with words and the development of language, there are a lot of things that I don’t think it could work with.  For example, history; you can be taught all sorts of misconceptions and probably have been, and you may even choose to still believe those things, but your beliefs don’t make it truth or fact, just simply a misconception.  Your beliefs can’t change cold, hard facts, but they can change your perceptions of those facts, creating your own reality.  A world that only you can decide what the facts are, and what you choose to ignore.

So why then do schools and people in general continue to teach misconceptions of information that have been around and been exposed for years and some for decades?  More importantly, why haven’t we, as a society, learned to question what we’re being taught?

Lightning flashes up in the sky,

So Strong and Powerful

The evening show of truth and beauty

The light of heaven flashes

The majestic peacefulness shows.

Feeling of grandure before you

Fills you with knowledge of something more

Look up and see the flash that comes before the crash.

Being overwhelmed by feelings is like falling….It’s like being at the edge of a cliff and looking straight down; You decide to Jump….to let go of the ledge…To free fall and see where you land.

Not knowing if you will even survive, but needing to find out despite the possible consequences….logic gives way…..Nerves, fear, submission to feeling is all that is left.

Not fighting anymore you are free; Free to feel what ever comes naturally; Free to do what is needed to get that release

Sobbing Strain reaches your ears; Uncontrolled emotions are released

You’re no longer inprisoned by your thoughts and logic, no longer looking for a way to hide what you feel…Simply allowing yourself to be immersed in the natural emotions. 

Feelings are no longer on a short leash but are the leader; your logical brain has no say in the matter;

The powerful out-pour of emotions is beautiful….It’s a beautiful intimate truth

Make no excuses, Just let it all go and feel at peace…..

I was watching a very interesting show on the National Geographic Channel today called “Inside a Cult.”  It was a very interesting documentary about several of the big religious cults that have been exposed in the US.  The show focused on the compound of Strong City.  This group believed their leader was the Messiah, but their “Messiah” ends up not being able to accurately predict the end of the world and instead is instead taken and prosecuted for sexual relationships with minors that also lived on the isolated compound.

One of the most interesting parts of the documentary was when it showed the members rejoicing over what was suppose to bring about a change in body for their “Messiah” but yet nothing happened that day.  As it turned out the world did not end on October 31, 2007.  They had a psychologist who studied different cult behaviors, she kept being brought on to interject comments on what was happening.  After we saw the members rejoicing despite the fact that nothing happened on the date that had been proclaimed, the psychologist came on and stated that in cases like this where the cult has completely consumed their lives, instead of abandoning the beliefs that they are hanging on to, it is easier for them to distort their perception of reality to match their beliefs….Strangely enough none of the members or the leader would comment on his supposed change in body. 

Although the psychologist was referring to the mindset of cult members, I have to wonder how often people do the same thing in every day life…..How often do people want and/or need something so badly that they begin to alter what is real around them to make themselves feel better.  Some people would argue that is all religion is in general.  Others would argue that is all life is….what is reality???  Isn’t everyone’s reality how they perceive it, even if  it is not what is actually real, what is real is what we believe to be real.  How can we tell the difference between actual reality and our perception of reality?

Do we all live in an altered reality?  If so, what is it that makes us decide who is a part of it and who is not “normal”?  Maybe there is a common understanding of the reality that we all experience…  Look at it like this, if there is a fight that happens and ten people are watching the two people fight.  There are twelve different interpretations of what happened for things it escalate into a fight.  All versions of the story might have comment threads, but everyone’s perception will be just different enough to be declared their version of the story, their truth.  Is this how life works?  We all live with the common grounding to the world, but have our own perceptions from then on?

The BitterSweet moments in life always come when they are the least expected.  Generally you don’t think, ‘wow I would love for this to happen because it will make me completely miserable in another way.’  The BitterSweet moments are what make us know we are alive, that we can feel, that we still have a beating heart that can love, be exulted, but still break and bleed. 

Things to remember in life:

“True love promises risk, not a guarantee” -unknown

Sometimes you need to just go with things to see what happens next

Trust can be a friend or an enemy — you can either trust that things will work out the way they are suppose to, or feel betrayed by trusting your feelings

Someone always gets hurt – When you try to please everyone, everyone gets hurt.

Passion often rules over logic, so be careful who and what you are passionate about or you will be left vulnerable. 

Honesty can only get you so far

You are the only one who has to live with you for 24 hours a day 7 days a week

Feelings Lie

The people who love you the most can hurt you the most

There is always something that you didn’t see coming

You never know what could happen – only what has happened, how you handled it, and try and prepare for if it happens again

You can never be prepared, everything changes with time, the same exact thing never happens twice

You will change with every event that happens in your life, the positive, the negative, and the bittersweet.